When I first 'met' you Ithought you weren't going to be as important as you are now. We became friends, best friends, I was able to tell you anything, and the same for you. Our late night conversation seemed endless. You suddenly became single! I was sad yet somewhat happy. I was sad since the person you had broken up with was my best friend. But I guess I was also a bit happy since I had developed a small little crush on you. Then and there you asked me out. The break up happened through text messages as well as when you asked me out. I stupidly said yes.
You went on and on about how happy you were to call me yours. We kept a secret from your ex ( my best friend ) , just because we thought it was ti soon. You tild me you just couldn't hold it in and tild her. She took it pretty good, then again I think she didn't. When they were together, she had mentioned how much she lived him, and that he was the first person she actually had deep feelings for. So then about a week later we had an argument. Which ended our relationship. But we stayed friends obviously. You started talking to your ex again. You told her the exact same words you told me. So it was obvious that you trying to get with her again.
And it work. You guys got backtogether while I just stood there pretending I was happy. Don't get me wrong I was obviously happy I mean she is my best friend. But I was heartbroken. So that then ended. We kept having "on and off reletionships". I hated it. I wanted so badly to call you mine. But when I had a chance to do that, it was only for a short timesince our relationships only lasted about a week. I felt so used. You broke up with me after saying you loved me, you had me thinking I did something, that it was my fault. You would always bring up your girlfriends and I would say I'd be happy for you. Which I acyually was because then again we were close friends. We would still hangout, which would be fun. You would always make me feel better when Iwas down. Thing was that when we did hangout, we got close, too close. We acted as if we were more than friends. In away, I enjoyed it. But I also had to come back to reality, which is when I would realized that we weren't actually dating.
About a month later, I hung out with her again. She had told me what you have said about me. Stuff like "I think she's the one." When she told me that my heart lit up. I tried not to smile but it just came out. But again I realized that, that was in the past and now its all gone. We stop talking for some reason. We just drifted apart. Months later you texted me and we started to hang out again. I remember you hugging me tightly and telling me how much you missed me. I loved it. 2015 came months later. That was the year we kissed. Im pretty sure it was someday in February. When your lips met with mine it felt like everything around me just disappeared. I honestly hoped you feel the same. I remember I pulled away because I thought of my best friend. You wanted to keep going but Iwanted to be good friend like always. Hope you weren't disappointed. Later that day we kissed again. It was last longer and same as the first it felt amazing (even though you weren't my first kiss). When we both pulled away you hugged me and said "Aww you're shaking... Its ok.". You made feel secure.
After a few days we hang out again. It was monday. You came over and hang out. It was pretty fun, like always. You got a call and told me had to go since you had soccer practice. I understood but I didn't want you to go. You gave a quick hug and told me you'll come over tomorrow. I knew it wasn't true. I was right you didn't come over or text me. I was able to tell on how you hugged me. Sounds with but its true. The hug you gave me was surprisingly quick. You've never hugged me like that before. We didn't talk for months straight until you texted me. You have no idea happy I was. But sadly for me, that didn't last long. My best friend would bring you up numerous times. When she did, my heart sank. Just knowing the fact that you're not busy or anything and yet not texting me irritated me. Did I do something? You had this questions going on in my head for days.
