My biggest mistake

Chapter 1

        November 13th, 2015. The most important day of my life. The day I took the step forward to get to know him. It was around, I'd say 7:00 – 7:30 at night. One message was all it took. "Have a nice trip see you next fall," was all I had said. I was quoting him from a day I had fell at our bus stop. I hadn't know him then, but he still made me smile with a few words. I wasn't really involved with boys then, but what happened next changed my perspective completely.

November 14th, 2015. The day I actually officially met him. From the very first time he smiled at me, I knew this boy was going to be so very important to me. We spent from around 9:30 am to 1:00pm together that day, then I went home, and not even two hours later he was at my door, beckoning me to go back with him. So, being my people pleasing self I went. I didn't come home until 8:00 that night. We had fun that day, we also did something normal people wouldn't do on the first day. We had sex. And as I regret it, I also don't because if it wasn't for that, would we even have continued together. I know that sounds horrible, that sex was the start of our relationship. But, from there we grew into something beautiful.

November 15th, 2015. The day we officially got into a relationship. The day that started what I now call my life. Now, let me get something straight, this day wasn't all love and rainbows and happiness. The begging of this day sucked. I had called my best friend crying about how I had slept with him the day before, and I remember saying that I had felt a little forced. She, being my best friend, immediately went to his house to bitch him out and kick his ass. He then proceeded to tell her that's not how it went at all, and looking back now I can see that he hadn't been trying to force me. Now he didn't hold me down, he didn't order me to do anything, I just felt like it was my only option. So basically I accused him of rape, and he wasn't guilty. Then a few hours later after we had calmed down from things, he asked what was going to happen between us. He asked if we were dating, and I had said that if he asked me out I would say yes. He didn't ask me out because he wanted our relationship to be different from other peoples. So I had asked him and then we started dating.

About a month into dating we had said I love you. It was true though, at least I know it was for me. We rushed things, a lot, but all of it was true, so I didn't have any problem with it. In my eyes we were perfect. It was so amazing to have him around, it still is.

December 18th, 2015. It was a half day at school, due to the end of the quarter, so he and I had gotten home around 1:00 that day, on the bus ride home we spontaneously decided that that day he would meet my parents. So, we dropped off his stuff at home and walked to block it was to my house. Mom hit it off with him, instantly, however my dad took a little convincing. I mean after all he is 3 years older than me and took my virginity. All it took was one Rambo movie to get those two going. We had so much fun that day, it might even be one of our best days together.

Following that half day was a three week winter break, and we spent almost every day of it together. When my Christmas money came in we went shopping, we did all sorts of thigs together. On Christmas, I had to explain to him how to make stained glass cookies, because his turned out a total wreck. I was so amazed how my family had welcomed him in. I knew that this boy was going to impact my life so much, and that he did.

About two weeks later, i made my biggest mistake.