Weeks went by and I was not enjoying my summer. When I turned sixteen, I told myself that I was going to live a little more. It was a Saturday evening and I knew kids were outside and that's where I needed to be. For some reason Char hated when I tried to go outside. She would get angry and say; why go outside? You're too ugly to make friends. I believed her any other time but I won't today. Fuck Char
Jumping up, I quickly got in the shower to wash up. Once I was done I got out and started to brush my teeth. I stared at myself in the mirror.
"I'm not ugly," I convinced my self. I was light skin kinda bright actually, cute button nose, brown sad eyes and full pouty pink lips. My hair was long but I kept it in a ponytail. I looked down at my boobs and shrugged, B cups. I was only sixteen, not much curves and I was okay with that. After finishing up in the bathroom, I found something to wear. The one good thing with Char is that she didn't let any of her foster kids look bummy. Char had money or maybe it was our checks that kept her little boúji lifestyle, however we was all somewhat fly. Dressing in a white Forever 21 tank crop top and some old Levi skinny denims I cut up, paired with some grey chucks. Ima simple girl, I didn't care for jewelry or makeup.
Instead of telling Char I was leaving I just left. Before I left I took a few dollars out of her purse for transportation. She always leaves her purse unattended and open so why not take some money. I waved bye to some kids as I left out. The kids have my back so I know they won't snitch. Hell, they looked happy to see me go outside for once. Rain was always trying to convince me to be an actual teenager and she's only eight. Pathetic, right?
Once I started to wander down the street, I realized I had no clue where the hell to go. For it to be a summer day in Capitol Heights, the neighborhood was pretty quiet. All I seen was mowed lawns and nice houses lined up in rows. I continued down the street to the bus stop and sat there waiting for any bus to come. I noticed a blue Sudan sneakingly creeping on to the street I was on and slowly come to a stop. I wasn't too street smart but I was alarmed and on attack mode. Char taught me some self defense moves one day, so I was ready to kick some ass.
Interrupting my thoughts, the car came to slow stop and the window rolled down a little. I damn near jumped and fled away until I heard a familiar voice.
"Aye lil mama." Hearing his voice I was damn near too scared to turn around. I haven't seen Amir since he was kicked out of Chars. I finally turned around and i was greeted with the cheesiest grin.
"Heyyyy Mir!!!" I cheerfully responded. He met me halfway as stood on my tippytoes burying my face into his neck. He smelled so good as if he just jumped out the shower.
"Where you been Mir? How are you? Are you-" I questioned quickly until he interupted.
"Woah ma slow down. I'm good ya know me. I been outchea doin my thiznyee" I looked at him crazy as he had this cocky smirk. Amir is what you call a "ruff around the edges" type of dude. Tattoos covered his cocoa brown medium body built from his neck to ankles which is new to me. Everything about was perfect from his deep waves to his chocolate brown eyes. Did I mention his beauty mark on the right side of his full pink lips. I had a crush on Amir and my feelings for him never changed. We had too much history.
"What you doin out here Jazzy? Chars crazy ass let you out?" He stopped and looked at me, actually staring me down. Matching his gaze, I gave him an angelic look as if im innocent; knowing I snuck out.
"Awe shit, you snuck out didn't you? Let me find out, you not so innocent no more, why you sneak out Jazzy?"
"It wasn't even like that Mir Bear", putting on my innocent act. " I just wanted to be a normal teenager for once and spend time with kids my age, besides you never answered my question. What you doing over here?"
"I'm just ridin through, damn is it a crime to be in this part of the neighbood and you didn't ask." He nervously scratched the back of his head and looked away. I knew he wasn't being honest with me so I let it go. "Come and take a ride with me Jazzy Pants, we need to catch up."
Following him to his car, I could only imagine how he got this vehicle. He was only 18 and a former orphan at that. One word came to mind : drugdealer. Although I was dissapointed, I wasn't surprised. You gotta get it how you live.
Once in the car, Amir started it and we were off driving out of my neighborhood. I was so happy running in to Mir, it was like fate. I thought about him everyday and his well being. I missed him. Looking over at him, I studied his face and attire. He wore a black and blue dolphins snapback with a white tee and basketball shorts. Blue, black and grey Air Max 95 supported his feet. He was so cute when he drove with his right hand on the wheel and the other hanging out the window.
"Damn can I have my face back, I know I'm sexy and all, but don't stare a damn whole in to my head. Sheeshhh!" I busted out laughing, cracking up at his silliness..
"Boy you wish, look like somebody beat you with an ugly stick."
"You got jokes little girl. You hungry? Know what don't even answer that, I already know ya greedy ass be grubbin."
"Whatever punk ass and yeah it don't matter where you go, you know I eat anything. As long you ain't cookin then we good." He turned to me and smirked, focusing back on the road and making a right on some unknown street. "Where do you stay anyway?" I questioned.
"I got me a lil spot on the East. Nothing major."
"Oh okay." I nodded keeping it short, not wanting to run out of things to talk about.
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"So Jazzy, how have you been?" We sat comfortably in this little diner called Seasons. Mir said they had the best burgers and steak fries which is my absolute favorite.
Shrugging my shoulders nonchalantly , I replied ,"I've been okay ya know can't complain." And I couldn't, some other people had it way worse. "The kids are okay too, I make sure of that."
He nodded sipping on his Sprite. The waiter had finally come back with our food and I was excited to eat. I dug in immediately, I ejoyed a good grilled double-cheeseburger with everything on it and some steak fries and cheese. Mir had the same thing and I believe he enjoyed the delicious meal as much as me. We were too busy with our mouth full to talk.
"You hangin with me for the day or what? I mean you're with me anyway so you just gonna just chill with me. " I staled faced the shit out of him. He was just so cocky but it wasn't nothing new.
"I knew you missed me Mir Bear and yeah I guess. I just have to be back at a certain time."
"Cool", was all he said and we finished our food and left. Once getting back in the car, I realized I was in for one hell of a day. But I sat back and vibed to the music Mir blasted trying to play cool, knowing I was low key nervous.
