when he dances

Chapter 19

Chapter 19

Two weeks na lang at Christmas na. it’s more than a week na nung nagtapat si Clint sa akin at more than a week na din mula ng binasted ko siya. After that, nagging cold muli si Clint sa amin. Kahit na kay Bea, cold na rin siya. I didn’t mean these things to happen. It’s just that, Clint confesses to me in a wrong time. He is not yet back, not yet back to clarify things about us. Hahai. Bakit ba ako naiipit nito.

Kung pinayagan ko siya na manligaw, baka dumating naman yjng araw na mabaliwala yung panliligaw niya. Hanggang ngayon ay di ko pa nasasabi sa freaks ang tungkol sa aking bf.

I am at the cemetery again now, to visit my best friend. As what I always do every time I went here, I bring flowers to her.

“ hi besh, kamusta na jan sa heaven? Are things there alright? Here? I don’t know. I hurt someone whom I start to fall inlove with.” Ya, totoo, I started to fall in love with him.

“ if you wanna know, I’ll tell you. The story goes like this, there was that guy in my college life whom I admire very much. He even became my crush,  he became my crush for a whole semester. But the next semester became exciting because I can’t call that complication. It started when I was hit on school’s wall because of my carelessness. I don’t even knew that he was the one who save. All I know is he was the one who brought me to the clinic. At a party, where my friend’s mother invited us, I don’t even know that he is also there. I thought he was a nice person that time but I was wrong he did something on the party that I don’t want to experience, to be degrade in front of other people so what I did is I promise to my self that he’ll necer be my crush. But that’s what I thought when We became friends. We used to go out and enjoy each others company. I didn’t know that he used to like me since last sem and loved me since we become friends. And now he confessed to me and ask me if he can court me. But as what we know he couln’t because of some matter.” Pagkukwento k okay mari

“ how I wish andito ka pa sana mari” my tears are stared to come.  Here I am again, crying in my best friend’s haven.

“ bye, mari, I’ll go now. I’ll come back when I’m not busy.” At umalis na ako. Palabas na ako ng gate ng cemetery ng maalala ko yung araw na nagkita kami ni clint dito, the day where our friendship started. Hahai

I straightly went home. I want to go to sleep. Sleeping is what I do when I’m in not in mood.

Sumakay ako ng sasakyan pauwi ng bahay.

Pagkadating ko ng bahay ay dumiretso na ako sa kwarto ko. Humiga ako sa kama ko and..

“ I hope these things get back to normal despite the fact that it could never be.” And a while, I get down to sleep.

CLINT’s POV

“sorry na, please maawa ka na sa akin” pagmamakaawa sa akin ng lalaking binubugbog ko ngayon.

“ awa? Tsss. Wala na ako nun,” sinuntok ko uli ang lalaki. Suntok na parang din a bubuhayin pa ang matamaan. Reason kung bakit ko siya binubugbog? Hindi ko alam. I just want to release those feelings what I am holding for more than a week. Malas na lang ng lalaking ito at siya ang aking napagbuntungan ng galit. Oo, galit ang nararamdaman ko.

Alam kong di dapat ako magalit dahil sa hindi ako pinayang manligaw ni CJ sa kanya. Nagagalit ako kasi hinayaan ko ang sarili kong mahulog sa kanya. Hindi ko naman siya lubos na kilala. At dagdagan mo pa ng pressure ng pamilya.

Flashback

““who is he? Bakit di ko siya nakikita?”

“it’s that he’s not here in the Philippines, he’s in abroad.”