Fight Over Love (Jahvie Fanfic) [*HOLD ON*]

Dahvies Reaction

Dahvies ::POV::

I woke up to the sun glaring in my eyes, I looked over and saw that Jordon was still asleep. I'm so fucking hungry, I haven't eat'n since yesterday at diner. I quietly got up from my bed and tiptoed down to the kitchen still in my boxers.

I made myself some toaste with some orange juice. After I ate I took a shower to wash the stench of sex off of my body.

While I was in the shower all I could think about was Jayy, I didn't mean to hurt his feelings, I mean when you hear someone fucking another person you don't just walk in and think that it's ok to do that. I need to go talk to him he's propably still depressed.

I finished with my shower and got out to dry off, I grabbed a towel and wrapped it around my waste. I headed up to Jayys room and knocked on his door, I waited for an answer but It didn't come so I knocked again. I thought about jayy and imagined his face with tears. I don't even know why I tried making him jealous, I mean I want him to like me but I hate myself for making him cry.

I snapped out of thought realizing that jayy didn't open his door, I knocked even louder thinking that he didn't hear me the first two times, but I greeted with more silence.

I had enough of his jokes, I slammed his door open to see that he wasn't even there. I noticed a folded peace of paper sitting on his bed I walked over to his bed and opened the paper.

It read...

Dear Dahvie, what happened yesterday just literally fucked my brain up, I know I've seen you fucking many times before but I just can't deal with this, so much shit happened today and I just couldn't take this anymore. I'm leaving for awhile so don't try looking for me cause I know your not going to be able to find me. I also took a couple hundred dollars out of your wallet cause I didn't have any money on me and I didn't want to bother you and jordon.

---End Of Letter---

After that there where scribbled out words, I could barely read them so I took the paper and ran to my room still wrapped in my towel.

I jumped onto my bed trying my hardest to wake Jordon up. I bounced and rolled ontop of her but she still wouldn't get up.

I ran to the bathroom and grabbed my blow dryer out of the cupboard underneath the sink. I plugged it in next to the bed and turned it on high, I put it up to her face and a couple seconds later she flew off the bed and hit the floor hard.

I turned the blow dryer off and waited for her to get up. "What a dick face", Jordon said as she got up from the floor with a dizzy look on her face.

I smiled as I felt a tear fall from my face. "what's wrong Dahves?" she said with a worried look. "It's Jayy, he left.

I found a letter on his bed when I went into his room. it said something about how pissed off he was yesterday."

Jordon sat back onto the bed and grabbed the letter from beside me. I watched her eyes move as she read every word in her mind, tears began to build up in her eyes as she covered her mouth with her hand.

She dropped the letter and fell onto my lap, "this is all my fault, I shouldn't of came to your house yesterday." I felt her tears soak through the towel, I couldn't hold it anymore, I bursted out crying. "I mean I dont even know him that well but still, I feel like its all my fucking fault". I hugged Jordon trying to stop crying, but it was to much. "it's not your fault, it's mine, I said while I hugged her tighter. "Don't blame yourself", I said. "if your going to blame someone, blame me, you have no reason to hold this guilt."

We both layed on the bed crying our eyes out until we fell asleep.

I woke up before Jordon, I tried to move without waking her. I can't even Imagine how smeared my makeup is right now. I got up slowly and almost made it off the bed until my leg got caught in the blanket and made me fall to the ground.

I looked up at Jordon to see if she got woken up, she slowly lifted up her head to see what was going on.

I got up from the ground and sat on the bed, putting my hand on her thy and my other behind her back. She looked at me still sad about earlier, "it'll be ok babe, we will find him."

She tried to smile but her sadness took over.

I leaned toward her lips, she turned her face even more so she was faceing me. I kissed her softly while pulling her closer to me, she started to smile but then stopped and pushed me away.

She got up and got dressed in sweats and a sweat-shirt. She grabbed all of her stuff that she brought and she went downstairs. I stayed on the bed and thoght about Jayy, I miss him already, I need him back.

I can't stand being without him, I need him buy my side where ever I go. I was such a dumbass to think that buy making him jealous i would get him to like me. I felt tears fill up in my eyes again as I looked down at my hands. The pain. The blame. it needs to go away.

I got up from the bed and headed for the bathroom out in the hall, I searched the cupboard for a razor but I couldn't find one.

I remembered that Jayy had one underneath his bed from awhile ago. I walked into Jayys room tripping over clothes, I reached underneath his mattress and found the razor within seconds.

I quietly tiptoed downstairs to see where Jordon was, I saw her sitting on the couch watching some type of teen girls show. I ran back up to my room and closed the door, I stood In front of the mirror and slowly brought the razor closer to my arm.

More thoughts of Jayy went through my mind as the razor got closer to my skin. I started to cry at the feeling of missing him and his wonderful smile. I love Jayy and I wish that he never left me.

Guilt went through my mind as I pleaded for forgiveness from god.

I felt the razor peirce my skin as the worm blood ran down my arm onto the floor. I ran toward the bathroom and grabbed a towel from the back of the door.

I put it on the ground below me from where I was cutting. I took the razor and cut up above my other cut, I made several more cuts until I felt the release of stress.

I dropped the razor and tripped backwards, I fell onto my bed starting to feel dizzy. I sat up and looked at myself in the mirror noticing that I was getting pale.

I felt my eyes beginning to slowly shut, I wish Jayy was here with me, I wouldn't be doing this if he was still here beside me.

I want to die, this is all my fault, I will never forgive myself. I felt myself falling off of my bed and hitting the floor, then it all went black.

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