Why Would You Want Me?

time for 'Take Me Home'

*1 WEEK LATER*

chantella's p.o.v.

me and niall were released from the hospital about six hours ago.

it felt nice to be back home.

suddenly a thought went through my head...

"SUSHI!!!!!!!" i screamed at the top of my lungs. i was really craving it, because i my monthly friend was taking a VERY painful visit (A/N dont you just hate those cramps!?!? they hurt!)

all the boys and girls looked at me like i had frown another head.

why can i say? we all know im not a normal person.

i got my phone out and dialed patty's sushi place. i personaly think thats a really weird name for a place where you buy sushi. i mean, the title should atleast rhyme, dont ya think?

after i ordered enough food for niall to eat, i started ordering food for me and the boys and girls to eat.

once the food got here, we all dug in.

"ugh i love sushi sooo much"i said.

"haha" why was louis laughing?

"why are you laughing lou?" wow niall. way to totaly repeat my thoughts. now i know who to go to if i need a mind reader.

"chanti, you just said that out loud" louis said still chuckling to himself.

wow. i cant believe i said that out loud. i really should watch what i do sometimes. some things that i might say arent suposed to be said. the boys already think that i stopped cutting myself. but i havnt. the hate gets to me. they dont even know that i burn myself. im surprised they dont check my legs and arms more often.

"boys? im gonna go upstairs" i said kind of sadley. i didnt mean to sound sad, but i was very sad right now.

"ok" they all said at the same time.

i made my way up the stairs and into my bed room. once i closed and locked the door, i went to the loo and locked the door.

i got out my curling iron and turned it up to its max heat. once it was heated up i put it on my skin. it hurt at first, but the pain soon turned me into a whole other world. this world makes me forget about the out side world.

"chanti?" oh shit. wait... how did liam get in my room? i thought i locked the door... weird.

"the lads and i are going to bed now. the girls are sleeping over. i just came to let you know that we are leaving for the Take Me Home tour tomorrow. so pack your bags tonight. love you sweat heart. sleep tight".

i took the hair tool off my skin and put it away back in the drawer.

i went back in my room and packed my bags.

then i fell into a dreamless, peacful, sleep.