The Player I Used to Know {girlxgirl}

piece-16

"please don't ask me what's wrong because I feel I'm going to explode" I calmly told Rachel while removing my clothes.

"OK" she said simply she seemed taken aback but I really don't care at this point. Never again will I even let myself sink that low..not again.

I hovered over her way to angry to care for anything, and she knew. I kissed her feeling so numb for a minute I thought I was having a heart attack or something.

"are you sure?" she whispered trying to look me in the eyes.

I looked away feeling the tears on the back of my eyes not from sadness but from anger and something else I couldn't yet grasp. I didn't answer but I just kept going what I was good for what women really wanted.. what I always offered and what I should only offer despite of any feelings.

*

It's about four in the morning and I can't sleep his words are eating my mind..

Flashback:

"I'll get it!" I yelled over going for the door while Amanda and Danielle prepared dinner. Amanda got a glance at the door.

"hello MS. Larson" he focused the word MS. "can we speak in private?"

I nodded and closed the door behind me

"I know of the..relationship you have with my daughter." he looked around as if someone would see us "you could of fooled me when I met you Evan.. my daughter is not like you"

"and what I am exactly? because I'm in the same social scale as you" I said crossing my arms, just because I live in an apartment doesn't mean I don't have the money for a house with maids.

"well.. I think you know what I'm talking about.. see Leann has a fiance who she will marry soon" he coughed onto a handkerchief

"and?" I asked I already knew about the boyfriend but she never told me she was engaged

"look I'm here to tell you to stay away from her.. she didn't want to tell you herself but she just used you and you fell for it"

My jaw clenched "that's not true" I insisted telling myself more than him.

"here" he handed me a gold bracelet I had given her not so long ago "she threw this away but decided to bring it so you can get your money's worth" he chuckled " you should of known her better..she is usually like that but I'm surprised she used a ...woman this time"

I took it crunching it in my hand, It cracked drawing blood. I felt sick

"well I better be going they must be done making up for lost time.. I'm guessing something you couldn't give her?" he starred at me with wide eyes at how I didn't care for the blood trailing down my palm.

I couldn't believe what he just said as a father even that is disgusting.

"and please stop calling her you'll just embarrass yourself kid" he walked away

I stood there. I looked down at the bracelet full of blood, all the memories of her came back making me catch somethings I was too blind to see then.

END OF FLASHBACK

I stood and got dressed Rachel stirred but didn't wake, I headed back to my apartment not really knowing why I even slept with Rachel everything felt numb I didn't enjoy any of it like I usually do.

I entered the door quietly I saw Amanda sitting on the sofa close to the door with her cell phone in hand and a jacket over her. I looked around whatever I dropped had been cleaned.