Torn

Hi I'm Alice. I'm not exactly what you call "confident". I've been bullied since the third grade of secondary school(or 8th grade). It has been going on for a long time now....but it still hurts. I'm all out of faith, this is how I feel. (see what I did there..?) I try to be as unnoticeable as possible. But to be honest...I just want to find someone who excepts me for who I am. I don't care if I sound like an attention hog, I need love....doesn't everyone..? I don't get it though. Why can't I just be pretty and popular like Brooke? She could snap her fingers and a crowd of boys would run to her like lost puppies.

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"Alice..? Alice can you please answer the question?" my teacher Ms. Rose asked. "I...uhh..er....China?" I answered confused.

The whole class laughed and Ms. Rose made a crooked face, "That's a right answer for something but...this is algebra."

Ugh why do I have to be such a loser?! I am utterly embarrassed. I buried my face in my book trying to avoid my classmates. The bell rang and I quickly packed my things.

"Don't forget to study for Monday's quiz!" our teacher reminded us as everyone got up from their seats. I was just getting out of my seat when Brooke came over to me...oh great. "Hey 'Queen of all geeks'! I expect you to write down all the answers to the test and give them to me on Monday. Later freak." I just stood quiet and left the room. What could I really say or do? She could ruin me if I set her off. But is that so bad? I'm already at rock bottom.

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I don't really want to go home. Don't get me wrong, I love my mom. But I need to be alone. It's not like she can do anything though, she has no idea of what I'm going through. I don't like talking about it. I probably would've been able to talk to my dad about it but he died a year ago. Anyways....where should I go? Hmmm...I'll go to the coffee shop down the street and then to the park.

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"Um...can I please have a medium vanilla latte. No whip cream and uhh...can you put a few coffee beans at the bottom?" I asked the cashier nervously. I know the coffee beans sound weird but everytime I drink coffee I like to have something crunchy at the bottom to look forward to. I'm such a geek, I know.

As I thought, she looked at me weird and said, "Okay that'll be $2.75." I fumbled with my wallet and got out the exact amount. I handed her the money and smiled trying to not seem like a total loser. She then asked, "What's your name?" I brainfarted and forgot my name...wow. "Um uh....oh Alice!" She chuckled and wrote down my name. I sat at one of the tables waiting for my drink. After about 5 minutes I heard, "Alice, a medium vanilla latte, no whip and uhh...coffee beans..?" I quietly walked over to the front. There was a REALLY cute guy and handed my drink to me. I don't know how to act around a guy so I just said, "Um thanks." I reached in my pocket and pulled out a $10 bill and handed it to him. "What's this for..?" he asked me taking the money. I didn't know what to say. I can't tell him 'It's for being damn right hot' so I said, "It's uh...tip?" He smiled and thanked me. I didn't say anything and walked away.

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I got to the park, I love it here. It's so peaceful since kids don't really come here. I sat on one of the swings and slowly went back and forth. I did this for 20 minutes. I was done with my latte and I crunched the last coffee bean. I got up to go throw away the cup when I heard something. I looked around and didn't see anyone so I just ignored it. I'm pretty paranoid anyways. I went back to the swing but I sware I could hear footsteps and russels of the trees...and there's no wind. Me being me I went to the trees to 'inspect'. I may be paranoid but I'm also curious. I heard a voice say, "Hello Alice." I looked around but saw no one. I quietly said, "Okay I'm going mad." I saw a tall black figure coming from behind a tree and it said, "No love, you aren't mad at all. So what are you doing here all alone..?" Then I could clearly see him because he was only 3 feet away from me. He had gorgeous green eyes and brown curls that framed his chiseled features perfectly.

"I uhh...who are y-you? Um and how do you know my n-ame..?"

"You don't need to worry about who I am baby. But just say I've been watching you for quite a while now and I like what I see." He walked up closer to me to the point where our noses were touching. I could feel his heavy breathe on my mouth making chills go down my spine.

I shuddered at the thought that he has been watching me. Why would someone watch ME? I mean, there's not much to see. He's seriously creeping me out. I quietly whispered, "Please leave me alone." He chuckled and replied, "Sorry I can't do that. I need to watch you every minute now. Never leave your side....feel your love and feel your heartbeat against my chest." I seriously had no words, I'm so scared. "P-please you don't want me. I bet you could do WAY better. I mean, look at me I'm uh useless." I ranted not knowing what else to say. He frowned but then looked...angry? He then grabbed both my wrists with a really tight grip and said, "You are mine. You will obey me. That's final and if you don't listen, there will be consequences." I tried to squirm out of his grip but there was no point.

I was worried now. "W-what do you mean?" I'm now breathing heavy because the pain in my wrists is unbearable. Yes, I am weak. I have err....sensitive wrists?

He looked at me straight in the eyes and said, "Didn't you hear me? I meant what I said, you're mine and mine only. You will talk to NO guys and listen to everything I say. Got it?!" I quickly shook my head yes, I am terrified of him. I felt my eyes water and a tears streamed down my face. His angry face turned into a caring, concerned expression. Weird. "Please don't cry...shh baby I'm here." He said letting go of my wrists. He tried to hug me but I just sunk down, sitting against a tree. I was rubbing my wrists trying to soothe the pain when he nelt down to my level. He quickly grabbed my arm and I flinched. But this time he was gentle and lifted my sleeve. Revealing my cuts that he made bleed again, I started to cry harder because this is supposed to be my secret. I didn't want anyone to know because they'd just think less of me. Sounding like he wanted to cry he whispered, "Why'd you do this to yourself?" I looked down and responded, "I d-don't want to talk about it. Why do you care anyways? You don't know me." He lifted my chin with his index finger and admitted, "I know a lot more than you think." That scares the living crap out of me. "Wha-" I was cut off by him taking my arm. He studied my bleeding wrist for a few seconds and then he freaking started sucking the blood. The heck boy?! He started to bite and I whispered/screamed, "You're hurting me! What are you doing anyways?!" He looked into my eyes and back at my wrist. Then he kissed my cuts and wrapped me in his arms. I was shaking under his touch. He brought his mouth to my neck, grazing his lips on my neck and said, "Never hurt yourself again. That's my job. But I'll always...clean up the mess." I asked in a shaky voice, "W-why are y-you doing this?" He chuckled and said back to me, "Don't worry about that. Just know, no matter what....I love you."

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Ohh mah gurrd SO I'm new at this please don't tear me into pieces...haha and please comment, tell me what you think or any suggestions..? Also please VOTE, thanksss((: BTW my name is Miranda ~Styles~ <---- lol