Only If You Knew

Chapter Four: Shocked

Only If You Knew

Chapter Four: Shocked

Louis POV:

After that I just ran. I ran into my room, that was connected to Harry's, and laid on the bed. I thought about his feelings. If I'm "brave" enough to tell him I'm gay, then why the hell can't he just admit he's gay too? I know he said he doesn't know about his sexuality and blah blah blah but from his actions, drunken or sober, I think he's gay. Or bi, whatever it is my 'gaydar' is going off.

It's so early in the morning and i wouldn't want to wake anyone up but I really need to talk to someone.

-Louis: Hey Li, you up?

I must've stared at my phone for fifteen minutes crying until I finally gave up. Right then someone walked through the door.

"Um, hey Lou. I just came to talk." She said.

Wow. Never would have expected Eleanor to walk through my door again. At least she didn't bring her jerk of a boyfriend. I quickly wiped my eyes from any rolling tears. Thank goodness it's dark in here.

"Um hi El-Eleanor." I stumbled, almost calling her the nickname I gave to her. "What're you doing?"

"I just wanted to say I'm sorry?" It sounded more like a question than a fact. "I'm sorry. I'm sorry I cheated, I'm sorry I was selfish, and I'm sorry it ended that way. Even though it had to end, do you want to still be... Friends? I mean I don't want to sound like a sappy teen, but..." She trailed off.

"No, El. I want a real answer. Why are you doing this? You say you love me, cheat, keep your distance, and then apologize..." I wanted an answer. Not this bullshit.

"I feel bad. And Liam texted me a few days ago about the situation you and Harry have been having. Apparently he didn't know we broke up." Eleanor explains. But why so early in the morning? "I came early because I thought you might be up because of the fight with Harry. I thought if you were up, you would need someone to talk to. And if you weren't, I'd leave." Eleanor answers, reading my mind "Oh, and, Harry let me in." She chuckled with a smile.

Everything was silent. I was still processing what she was saying.

Eleanor seems awkward in the silence. She opens her mouth with something to say "So... Everything alright with... You know... You guys? That's kind off why I came ."

"Yeah we're fine. I really can't talk to you about this. Just go." I told her. I didn't need her here to add on to my depression.

"No, Lou. Even though we're over with I still want you happy." Eleanor said smiling.

I can't believe what I was about to do.

"Fine." I said. I told her everything that happened. Everything from me finding out I was bi, Harry and I almost kissing several times, pretending I was drunk, Harry pretending he was drunk, Harry saying he was straight, and all of those little details.

"Wow." She replied. After fifteen minutes of just me talking and telling her what happened that's all she had to say?

I gestured her to continue and she stood silent. I guess it'll be hard getting any real advise from her...

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Harry's POV:

After Louis ran I was running too. I ran in the opposite direction of him for a few steps. Then I slowed down and realized I had no where to run. No where to go. I looked back and saw Louis go into his room... Our room.

Even from a distance I swore I could see a single tear run down his face. My heart dropped at the sight.

I slowly walked to the couch until I hear a soft knock. I wipe the tears away and went to the door. I opened it and let Eleanor in.

"Hey Eleanor, what's," Wait, ELEANOR? I just realized it's El... The one who broke Louis heart.

"Umm, why are you here?" I asked her.

"I heard about everything and came to check on Louis. And before you ask, yes I know we broke up. And no, I'm not crazy." Eleanor said. I was close to her, and I could smell the alcohol on her breath. I guess it was enough to keep her from thinking straight but not enough for you to tell. Unless, of course, you smelled her breath

"I think you should leave." I told her sternly with a cough. I was proceeding to close the door but she stopped me.

"No. Let me see Lou." She told me, sassy. I put my hands up in defense and let her go by. A drunken bitch is not my problem right now. Louis is.

After El went in Lou's room, I sat on the couch thinking. Thinking about my sexuality, Louis, and everything else.

As hard as it is to say it, I believe I have come to a conclusion that I'm gay. As much as I don't want to admit it, it took a lot of looking online to figure out my sexuality. A lot of looking at naked girls, and of course naked guys.

Every time I would see a dick, I would get that familiar feeling in the pit of my stomach. But when I would see boobs, it was no big deal. THAT scared me.

Then I looked at some blogs, some reports, and a few "Gay-Is-Okay" websites and finally I'm not too ashamed of who I am.

That's when I realized how long Lou and El were in there. Curiosity got the best of me and I sat up from my chair and walked over to the door.

Without knocking I opened the door and was shocked to see what was before me. Eleanor was on top of Louis and they were snogging.

ELEANOR was on top of LOUIS and they were SNOGGING.

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***AUTHORS NOTE***

Hey guys! So here's chapter four it was kind of just a short filler but I still hope you liked it. If you did, it'd be, like amazing if you commented on this story. It literally would make my day, maybe even my week.

MI'm thinking about starting another fic. It would definitely be punk Louis and flower child Harry, but I'm still deciding in the plot. Who would read it? And if you have an idea for the plot just message me. Or if you have an idea for this story just comment.

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