Look alive sunshine. My dad would always tell me. (knowing how much I loved my chemical romance.) He'd also say Bridget one day your going to be slmthing wonderful and amazing you already are but one day people as going to really know. I would reply with a head nod and a little smile.
The truth is I'm just another person in this world of course I want to be something some day but I just don't think it will happen. No one ever stays long enough for me to actually mean something to them. So why try. And honestly one day I might even give up completely. OK so yeah I have depression and anxiety and a sleeping disorder and to top it all off I barely have any friends. I have like one friend, dylan. Beside all of that I don't see much hope In this world for myself. I honestly don't cause whenever I'm close to someone they leave when they say they wont. So why try.
Dylan always tells me that i shouldn't think like that and I should find someone who makes me happy and not let them go.she also said if that person males me haply then she will be haply for me no matter how much she might hate the person. But how do i do that when I'm me I'm this little hopeless. Vulnerable person who only listens to music and doesn't exactly like people and people just don't like me and if someone ever does have a crush on me I feel bad for them.
I'm 16 and in high school what's there left for me to do. I've only dated a few people and that was in junior high and we all know how that goes. They were crappy relationships.only one was a decent relationship. But either way. It doesnt matter.
No matter what people only see u on the outside most people don't even try to talk to you. My problem is partly o just don't really socialize people aren't exactly my thing. Sorry.
This first chapter was to get you to now Bridget's mindset and understand her thought process just a little bit atleast. I hope you like this so far it will get a lot more interesting soon OK I promise.
Also this is not labeling people who have any of those mental illnesses or have certain problems (depression sleeping disorder anxiety and suicidal thoughts) its just a part of who Bridget is there may be some triggering things in this story I will out trigger warnings on those chapters. And yes as I said a lot of band references. Bye for now
-kate
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Miserable At Best
Teen Fictionthis is a story about a girl, Bridget. who feels as if the world has given up on her and that there's no hope left for her. she stopped listening to people and listens to music instead. she's broken and sad but that's ok cause she cant stay broken...
