Hey guys this is my first fanfic. i am sorry if its really bad but here goes nothing!! :) That's how I think Nirvana looks but y'all can think what you want her to look out
Hi I am Nirvana May. As most of you don't know me I love to sing. I have purple and black hair. I am really pail. I get bullied by Kian Lawely. He has been bullying me for 9 years. I am 17 now. So yes that means he started bulling me when I was 8 years old. Sad I know right. Its like our parents say tell someone when you are being bullied, but when it happens to you its scary and you can't. Well anyways I have to get ready for school now yay! Oh I forgot to tell you one thing my mum is abusive ever since my dad died 9 years ago ain't that great! Now lets get on with the day.
Nirvana P.O.V
I wake up my my mum screaming at me what a way to start the new year right I am a Senior at Lincoln High School.
"Get your ass up now Nirvana! I want my food! I told you I want it before I wake up!" my mum screams at me. 'Shit' I thought to my self. I am going to get it worse now. My damn alarm didn't go off so now its going to me 10 times worse.
"Im coming! I am so sorry." I said to her going down the stairs to go to the kitchen to see her holding a belt. 'This is going to take a lot of make up to cover these up.' I thought to my self. She walks up to me and hits me hard in the face with the belt. I let out a big yelp.
"I told you if you ever do this again you would get it worse didn't I!" she yelled at me. I could not answer her she hit me really hard.
"ANSWER ME YOU STUPID BITCH!" She yelled at me. Then she hit me again.
"Y-ye-s y-ou d-did." I stuttered quietly witch was a bad idea because my mum hated when people stuttered. And I was getting hit with all her might.
"WHAT HAVE I TOLD YOU ABOUT THAT DAMN STUTTERING YOU DAMN BITCH!"She yelled at me hitting me once more. Before she told me to make her food then to get ready of school.
I finished making her food for her. Then I go up to my room to get ready. I looked in the mirror and see the bruise already forming from the hits my mum gave me. I put on my make up on my concealer on to cover up the bruises then I put on my foundation and then my powder and last but not lest my favorite winged eyeliner. I pick up my phone to see what time it was.
"Shit its 7:00." I said to myself. I grave my bag and penny board and I was off to school.'I hope I don't see him at school today.' I thought to myself riding down the street listening to my favorite band Nirvana. I know funny right my mum named me after a band that I ended up love so much. My thoughts were cut off fast when I hit someone hard.
"S-sorry I w-wasn't looking where I was going." Good going Nirvana stuttering again for fuck.
"Its ok- ohh its just the you ugly slut Nirvana. He smirked at me. Great its Kian my bully. He starts to walk up to me. He pushes me to the ground and kicks me. 'Thats going to leave bruise.' I said to myself.
"You stupid fat cow watch where you are going next time and lose weight!" He yelled at me before he walked off. I had tears in my eyes. I ran to the bathroom to where I would meet my "friend". When I got there I made sure no one was there. I found a stall and closed and locked the door.
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I pulled out my razor out of my bag and pulled up my sleeves and I pushed the razor down on my arm and watched as the warm blood went down my arm. I began to cry
"one for my mum." I said
"one for Kian." I cried harder when I said his name.
"Slut." I cut again.
"Whore." I had about I had about 14 cuts on my wrist. I got up and cleaned myself up. Then I remember I still have to get my schedule. I ran to get it and I looked at my classes.//
1st English
2nd finance
3rd American History
4th Study Hall
5th lunch
6th Music
7th Algebra 3
8th Biology
Music is my favorite I love to sing. It is my escape. All we did today in my classes was talk about the rules and shit like that. But the best news is that I have my 1st-6th and my 8th with Kian and he sits next to me in all my classes we have together. (note of sarcasm) But on a really good not that he only messed with me one time today and thats when I ran in to him on my penny board.
Time to go home. When I got home I made dinner and ate. When my mum finished she got up hit me really hard called me a slut and a worthless pice of shit then got her keys and left to where I was guessing the bar. I did the dishes and got a shower. I let the water warn up and then got in. I washed my body and my makeup off. I made sure I washed my cuts then I got out. I got dressed and then plugged my phone in and went to bed. Just to wake up in a world I do not want to be in alone and scared. I just hope I can find one friend to stay my friend forever or at lest for a while.
A/N
I hope you guys like it I will try to update tomorrow night! Goodnight to who ever reads my first fanfic 9:35PM I love you guys so much BYEEEEEEEEEE! My Lil aliens ✌👽
p.s: I am human I make spelling and grammar mistakes
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You did this to me Kian (DISCONTENTED)
Random"I see your monsters, and i am here to help you." said Kian Lawley my bully " How do I believe you? Kian you bullied me for 9 years you did this to me." I said but I ran off before he could say anything. Will Kian know what Nirvana was talking a...
