And so after a few days I was already shy when I tried talking to her with her friends. I wasn't really close with her that time and so I just stopped trying and I just let the time pass by.
2 months have passed by and yet I was still shy to talk to her, I couldn't even have the guts to look at her, I was just too shy because I don't really know this person that much. But then it hit me, "Alan, this is your chance, you should grab that chance" and so I approached her with confidence and started a friendly conversation with her, and you know what? It actually paid off in the end.
And so in that time, I asked my friends about who Meg is, and they told me "you should ask her yourself idiot". Yeah, that's how my friends answer me, but it was actually a good idea. So for a few weeks we started to talk again and I was thankful for that, but during that time, I think it was about time that I told her how I feel about her.
"Meg, can I tell you something?"
"uhhm sure, what is it?"
But then I remembered what Meg's friend said to me.
"she has a boyfriend Alan, and she's happy when she's with that guy, so maybe you don't have a chance, you should just find somebody else."
And so I stopped for a second, and I didn't say it to her, I just kept it as a secret from her because even though I will confess that I have feelings for her, I wouldn't even have a chance, or so I thought.
"cmon Alan just say it."
"nah, you don't need to know anyway"
"you sure?" she asked
"yes I'm sure Meg" I replied.
And so when I got home, I regretted what I did.
"Ugh Alan you stupid little scaredy-cat why didn't you do it?!?"
I was going to do it but NOOOOO, you were too scared to say it!
I regret what I did, I really did, but oh well, it was for my own good, or was it? Dammit, now I gotta make myself move on from this dumb-ass feeling.
