I Don't Care! I Ship It!

Day Four - On a Date

-Sean's pov-
"Are you ready yet pewds were gonna be late!" I yelled up the stairs to Felix who was taking his time getting ready.
It was are first date and I wanted it to be absolutely perfect, meaning being there on time was a big deal to me, but I didn't want to lose my temper with Felix, it wasn't his fault I was nervous. Well it kinda was, I thought he was perfect, and me? Well I'm just some dork who was lucky enough to get a shout out from him, and that after wards he actually wanted to play with me.
"Hold on hold on" Felix said running down the stairs as I checked my watch.
I looked back up at him and my breath was taken away, god he looked good in a tux, his cheeks turned a light shade of pink as I stared.
"W-why are you staring at me like that?" He asked shyly.
"You just look stunning that's all" I smiled "ready to go?" I asked hopefully.
"Yeah, everything's good and settled" he said and we both walked out to my car. I opened the door for him and he got I saying a small thanks. I closed it and got in the divers seat starting the car and buckling up. I drove to the dinner and got out. We both walked in and the greeter ushered us to our table giving menus and walking away. I sighed softly, I felt like I couldn't eat anything with you nervous I was, I looked up at Felix and out eyes met, we stayed like that for a but not saying anything, we have always been comfortable with silence when neither of us had nothing to talk about, but this silence was almost awkward, as if one of us had to bring up that neither of us knew how to date men, let alone someone who was your best friend.
"I'm not saying it" Felix broke the silence looking at his menu again.
"We should talk about it" I said deciding go look at my menu to, though not really reading it.
"Why? Can't it just be simple, we both like each other a lot" Felix said biting his lip.
"But dating guys is... Different" I added looking up at him again, only to have out eyes meet, again.
"I know, its... Weird" he said this time we didn't break the eye contact we had.
"Its... You think its because we we're friends?" He asked.
"Maybe... Aren't we still?" I asked.
"What if we break up?" He asked.
"I don't know"
Silence again, but this one a but more welcome between us.
"Maybe it because we have only ever dated girls" I said rubbing the back of my neck and looking down.
Felix opened his mouth to say something but stopped cause the waiter came over.
"Hello, I'm Dan, I will be your waiter this evening, why don't we start out with something to drink?" He asked.
"What's the strongest liquor you have?" Felix asked, he was thinking the same thing as me, maybe being slightly drunk would make if easier, but we would have to take a cab home.
"First date hey?" The waiter chuckled and nodded "the strongest liquor coming right up" he said and walked away.
"I want this to work out" I finally said.
Felix smiled, the smile that I had fell for washed away all my worry, and the awkward silences had become comfortable all of sudden.
"Why do you want it to work out?" Felix asked.
"Because I think your the first guy to ever make me question everything about my life, you got everything back on track for me, and ever sense I stared into thoughts blue eyes of yours that turn green like a forest sometimes, I fell harder, I didn't even have a chance to collect myself. You take my breath away" I said letting out everything I had held in sense I had met him in person sense I had first touched him.
Felix's hand touched mine and the waiter brought a bottle of wine.
"I ordered-"
"I know what you ordered... But you seemed a little more comfortable now" the waiter said pouring it into our glasses. He took out order for food and left again.
"You confused me Sean... And I liked it, I liked questioning my sexuality, I even liked the but of pain I felt when I knew I couldn't have you, I never thought I'd actually have you... This is going to be complicated beyond belief but I'll try if you try" Felix said with a big smile.
"Of course I'll try Felix" I said.
The rest of the date went smoothly I was even able to drive us home. Best first date ever.

//AN- I got some feelings out of the way with this one, and some people who read this who have never dated the same sex may not get this, but I'll link a video of Shane's that he explained how I felt when I started dating the same sex cause wow it can be complicated... Anyway love you crazy people peace ✌