feel; written on april sixth, two-thousand sixteen
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the tears kept flowing
and the headaches would
never shrink
demons took over
a girl who would
constantly think
about what she had
done to deserve
it all
who on earth could
she even call
to explain that
there were monsters
that no one could see
who were destroying her
in a place where she thought
she was free
because in the silence
of her bedroom
where she thought
she was safe,
the monsters inside
of her
kept her awake
with their shouts
and screams that were
as tortuous as could be
why couldn't her parents
just sit down and
see
the effect they had
on her,
the sorrow in her eyes
why have they yet
to question
why she always cries?
without the help
of anyone
at all
she was forced
to take
the frightful fall
into a downward spiral
of darkness and
lies
where the monsters
gifted her a
sweet surprise
a bottle of pills that
would make her numb,
so all of the
obstacles she would have
had to overcome
would be no more
and her worries
would end
wouldn't life be
easier if you didn't
have to spend
all of your years
cowering in fear,
instead you could
erase the pain
and not feel the tears
and you're allowed to
cry as much
as you want
because darling,
why not
why not cry
for days and days
if you can't even feel
the tears running down
your own face?
[a.g.]
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was this okay, bad, terrible? please be honest.
