Betrayal ~ Spoby

The Man I Loved- yes, lovED

We're all pretty little liars, but I never thought someone could hide such a huge secret for their whole life.

*earlier that evening*
I grabbed Caleb's face in my hands and pressed my lips to his passionately. Our tongues connected and his fingers found their way to my waist. Pushing me back onto the sofa, he leaned over me. My fingers pulled up his shirt, revealing his toned muscles. This was perfect.
Suddenly he pulled away, turning his head.
"Caleb?"
He was breathing heavily.
"What's wrong?"
I sat up quickly. He looked upset. What had I done?
"Spence...I..."
It felt like one of those moments when the man tells you they slept with your best friend. It wasn't. But in a way, it was much worse.
"I have to tell you..."
My heart was pounding. What had he done?
"I- we can't be together any more."
"W- why?"
I was shaking. I steadied myself.
"Caleb...?"
"I'm gay."
He still didn't look at me.
I desperately searched my mind for an excuse. It wasn't April Fool's Day. He wouldn't joke like that. I could see the tears glistening on his cheekbone. Did I mishear him?
"You..."
He finally faced me. I could see relief in his eyes, along with pain and apprehension.
"I'm sorry."
My pride in my boyfriend for coming out dissolved as I realised he was no longer my boyfriend.
Now I was angry.
"You dated me for two years! We were serious! You... you had all this time with me to tell me, and..and....you dated Hanna! Y-you...you were mine! I love- loved you. We... Caleb...what was this about? Were you....using me?" I'd broken down into tears now.
"No, nothing like that! I... I was scared to tell you..."
"Of course you were, but you could have told me before you let me fall in love for two years?!"
His chest is heaving. He looks angry with himself.
"I- I did like you Spencer. Really like you. And I didn't want to lose you."
"But you never....loved me!"
I spit the word out. He bites his lip. This is the man I was dreaming about having a family with. And now nothing is left in me but pain.
I stand up and viciously pick up my bag from the table.
"Spence- Spencer, don't..."
"No! Don't tell me what to do!"
I leave his apartment, the door slamming behind me.
I hate it. I hate that I gave so much of myself away to a man who never had feelings to me. I hate that I dreamed up a life with him. I hate myself.
I barely make it out of the building before I break down. Leaning against the wall, I shake and cry and shake until I slide to the floor and slowly drift asleep.

(A/N) Hey guys! (if anyone's actually reading) I hope this chapter was interesting. I also hope that I actually finish this story. I'm not great at that.... anyway, I think this story will have quite short chapters so I can update more! Please vote, comment, share, whatever the hell you want to do to show support! Xxx