Alcor D. Cipher {OLD; CHECK FOR NEW ONE}

After I Left

(A/N) Before I start let me say something. This chapter is VERY sad. If you don't like this kind of stuff, you can skip this chapter. It can be very triggering.

Dipper's POV:
I walked in and everything was so sad and gloomy, worse than the outside. It looked like the inside of a goth/depressed child. There were no memory doors but notes lying around. I read them in order.

You left after I closed my eyes, without saying goodbye. I've been sad while you've been gone since you left where you belonged.
Life grew hard. I suffered in school and got bullied. I felt so insecure. Without you to protect me, people took advantage of my weakness.
Grades dropped. My life was horrible. I wanted to die.
I started to get rid of my bright, cheerful, clothes since they reminded me of you. I wore black. Everything I owned was black. There was barely any color in my room anymore. My heart was dead.
I had no friends. Candy and Grenda no longer talked to me. I disobeyed mom and dad.
Mom and dad started taking me to a therapist. I often got very angry. I did graffiti around town. I started cutting my wrists. I was put on anti-depressants, they didn't help.
I came to Gravity Falls, Gideon was let out of jail during the school year. I went to his place. When he answered the door I went into his arms and started crying. He invited me in and asked me to tell him whats wrong, why I wasn't the shooting star I used to be. I told him everything. He was all I had left.
Gideon told me to summon Bill, that he wasn't so bad. Ask if I could have closure, or have you back. I did the ritual and he appeared. I said I wanted a deal. He invited me to the mindscape. He could've killed me right then and there and I wouldn't care. He led me to a room, not very bright but not very dark. Another demon talked to me, I've never seen or heard of him before. Once I said my name he flinched. I didn't care. I gave him my deal. I'm sorry that I gave the journals up. You were gone, I was desperate, I needed you back. In the morning I would have you back! I was leaving when I blacked out.

So, Shooting star did fall into depression after I left. I dropped the note I just read and thought to myself. If I do care about this one human, then why do I treat them horribly? I kept thinking. Instead of giving her a fake brother, I'll give her me for a bit! It'll give me closure and her so too.

Edited on August 9th, 2017. December 30, 2017.