Devestaion Of Beauty

No Faith

I stopped having faith in people when I turned 9.

I stopped living when I was 7.

I got told since I was 2 to buck up and get over it.

I put on a mask when I was 5.

And I haven't loved since forever.

I got suicidal when I was 12.

Sucide doesn't always mean you put a gun to your head. It can also mean you try not to live. It means in my case that you don't look when you cross the street and hope you get hit.
It means cleaning up then sucking your thumb and hope you get sick. It means not doing anything in class so you don't go know where in life and lose your ambitions and stop eating or eating to much. Just to drop dead.......

I stopped having faith in a so called God

I stopped having faith in parents of all kinds

I stopped having faith in my self

I most certainly never had Faith in the world

A world War 3 is happening inside me

Losing my self because the faith I once had is gone

Dying alone

Maybe all I can do is die a little more in the world that i never had faith in...... That never had faith in me

* thank you MrAlwaysCertain*
I appreciate you