It's Just Me and The Asshole

Chapter Three: Shes A Mystery

I'm anxious. I have school today and I'm pretty sure he will be there. We also have a date tonight. I think I might cancel. I don't know him well enough. But isn't that what dates are for? I've never been on a date. I don't want to give my mom the satisfaction of thinking I got with him because of her. Well anyways, I listen to some music and hop in the shower. After doing my whole morning routine. I slip on some black ripped jeans and a pink crop top with pink slides. I slick my hair in a bun and put my phone, keys, and lipgloss in my bookbag. I grab my airpods and head to the door without speaking to my mom.
"Hello, so now you can't speak." She says practically running out the kitchen to catch me. She steps really close to my face and pushes me against the wall.
"You know to speak to me before you leave and when you come home. Especially when you're going somewhere in the car I bought your ungrateful ass." She says clenching her teeth.
"Sorry mom. I'm off to school. Have a good day. Love you." I say with the weakest smile and dash out the door. I have promised myself to never let her see me cry.  A tear falls and I quickly wipe it away and start the car. I make eye contact with Jordan and quickly drive off. I make it to the school where Zariah is waiting with Davon (her boyfriend).
"Hey guys." I say acting as if I wasn't crying all the way here. Im sure my eyes are puffy so I don't think I'm hiding it well. I put a cap on in the car to make it unnoticeable.
"Hey boo. How'd last night go?" She says and Davon wiggles his eyebrows at me. Zariah tells him everything. So it's like we're forced to all be besties. Even though I had her first.
"It went fine. He's not as bad as I thought." I said smiling a bit.
"He's one of my friends so you'll probably see him a lot more." He winks at me and laughs right after. Why didn't Zariah tell me? Before I can ask more questions he pulls up right next to my car. When he opens his door I say goodbye to everyone and walk at a fast pace to get to my class; even though I'm ten minutes early. I stand at my locker and find myself about to cry again. I don't know what's wrong with me. Just another off day. I take one of my antidepressants and grab my phone.
J: Yo why you walk off like that? You don't wanna see me?
Me: It's been a tough morning. I'll talk to you later.
I get through my classes struggling not to cry and ignoring everyone. I take my car home and park in the driveway noticing my moms car and another car I've never seen. Must be one of her dates or something. Instead of going in the house I grab my keys, phone, and wallet and start walking. I do this so I can think and be alone. Today I can't seem to shake her rude ass off. I close my eyes for a minute not caring about the passing cars. I get lost in myself; enjoying my time alone. Until someone beeps at me telling me to get out the road. I flick her off and walk fast to the neighborhood park. There's no one here. I get on a swing and lightly kick my feet. Zariah's been texting me all morning. Now she's asking me where I am. Sometimes I wish people would leave me alone; I obviously don't wanna be found. I think about running away; packing a bag and not even leaving a note. I know she would get someone to find the car and take everything she gifts me with. She calls being a parent a gift. One that she lacks but doesn't even know it. I think about my dad and why he left me with her and if he's starting a new family without me. I plug my airpods in and listen to heartbroken songs; that's all I ever listen to nowadays. Before I know it it's dark and not safe for a 17 year old black female. I start to nearly run home when I bump into someone. I immediately try to keep running but they grab my shoulders forcing me back.
"Please let me go. I'm sorry I ran into you." I say nearly shivering from fear.
"Calm down it's just me dickhead." Jordan says with a chuckle. I notice I missed our date but maybe I did that on purpose. I punch him in the stomach and start to walk off.
"Let me walk with you. I wouldn't want someone to take whats mine."
"Fuck you asshole..I'm not an object someone can steal from you." I speed up and he follows me. The rest of the walk is silent until we're around the corner from our houses.
"I guess it's too soon for a goodnight kiss." He says jokingly puckering his lips. I stand on my tippy toes and lean very close to his face until he can feel my breath on his lips. He looks a bit shocked but quickly covers it with a smirk. I put my feet back on the ground and keep walking. I notice my moms car isn't in the driveway and notice I haven't ate all day. I hear my stomach growl and hope Jordan doesn't hear it.
"You want me to come in and keep you company..you did miss our date..and our first kiss." He says.
"Whos to say I would've kissed you? If you come in you're not allowed to touch me" I say with a certain dominance in my voice.
"I won't do anything you don't like sugar." I open the door to my house and lead him to the living room. I order a cheese pizza and garlic knots and sit down far away from him on the couch.
"I don't bite..unless you want me to." He says winking at me. He scoots closer to me until I'm almost in his lap. It's been so long since I've been physical with anyone. Even a hug is not within reach with me but I don't push him away. I lay my head on his shoulder enjoying the silence. He grabs my waist pulling me even closer. His phone rings and he jumps up to answer it. When he gets off the phone there's a disappointed look on his face.
"Sorry sugar, I have to go." He says and quickly pecks me on the lips as if its nothing. My poor panties.
"Bye Jordan" I say feeling somewhat sad. Why was he rushing to leave? Did he have a girlfriend? He probably just didn't want to be here with me but he kissed me. Maybe a peck is just a peck. All I know is I'll have to eat all that food by myself.
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