Roses are red Narcissus are white
You left me in the dark as a lil one - you were never able to see my light
I won't call it pride for what I feel inside
It's something else entirely - something more sinister for why we can't see eye to eye
As your child, I feel like a stranger
You care more for the ones you hang with than your own son - blood related
You made me a part of who I am today but those are words you'll never hear me say
You won't get the pleasure to know - that at 14 I almost committed suicide with no hope
I thought about drowning my pain away with pills and vodka
All because I was made insecure by the man I call father.
Even now I'm more confused and broken than I've ever been
I don't even feel hurt anymore when I reminisce
Anger. It's all I know the one emotion I have trouble of letting go
I distance myself from those who care cause of trust issues I know it ain't fare
What I came to say - I'm not completely proud of who I am today
We all make mistakes - some of us put those on replay
A promise to my unborn kids... I won't do you all like my father did
Through his mess ups and selfishness I swear to accept your differences and relish in it
It's who you are and I'll love you unconditionally
I'll do for you what my father didn't do for me.
Emeralds are green Sapphires are blue I swear to never desert you - I'll love you for you.
C.
