Prohibited Love

The Meeting

4th February 1930

Dear Diary

It's been a few days since I've seen him and yes I'm at the hostel again continuously glancing outside hoping to see him waiting there for me. A few moments later, he appears and I wander out and he stutters backwards and I yell out "Hey! Don't go... Please we need to talk instantly.." He yells back saying "Talk about what?" I reply gently "About you sitting stalking me always standing here every time I'm here your here" "What makes you so sure I'm here for you? I might be married, waiting for my wife?" He whispers gently I shake my head and sigh "So does that mean that all those times I thought you were Mr Right? Your married?" Oh God I yelled "I'M IN LOVE WITH A MARRIED MAN?!?!" I bellowed. "It's not fair you kept giving me insanely mixed signals why? You shouldn't be staring at me at your married years. Oh God you made me like you for me to find out your married. I do hate you 'Mr Right'". I cried out "Ahh Remember I did say I might be and please call me Clovis Hündert" he whispered and every breath he whispered got me hooked softly and I was mesmerised by his words alone...

I am an addict. I Abaigael Abbaron am an addict, there's just something about him that's insanely addictive. He's like a twisted form of cocaine, he's not good for me.... I mean he is a married man but I do love Clovis dearly ever since I first laid my eyes on him and I don't think I'm going to stop just because he has a fiancé those things can be called off. Clovis asked me on a date, finally to where it all began the 'Floating Palace'. He just makes me feel so perfect and I managed to kiss him. It was absolutely magical and the way his lips tasted of sweet tangy strawberries. He grappled me and wrapped his arms across me and held me tightly like I was a priced possession.. I wonder if that's how he holds his wife.. She must feel so lucky, she must feel like the luckiest person on earth.. Clovis is quite something, the way he looks with his exquisite dark hair and the way the brushes on his face, lights up his devilishly handsome face.

My date with Clovis was one of a kind and I guess it's the best date I've ever been on and luckily he asked me for a do over, as if he can do anything to top that... Before leaving, he came up to my whispered in my ear, " you what, my wife wouldn't be happy if she knew what we were doing" as he said that everyone he spoke, his eye twinkled and I couldn't help but look away, pull away and he moved and said "goodbye"... God damn it, why does he have to be this way? He's a cheater?? As well as a handsome sex God.. I think I am the other woman? Oh what do I Do?

Abaigael Abarron

4th February 1930

Dear Diary,

It was magical... Well at least today was, there was just something about her that made me feel secure? Made me feel beautiful and all my imperfections are suddenly perfect imperfections and she makes me feel loved. We have a joke well a joke between the both of us, she thinks I'm married but I hope I don't come across as that guy who is a cheat because the only reason I said it was because... all my life I've been dumped by my girlfriends for being too boring I mean I'm 23 and I've only had 3 girlfriends throughout my life and I have friends who have had 15... I just wanted to be interesting for once and if being interesting means losing her but I'd rather lose her than lose her when it's too late, when I'm too attached... Cause God surely knows that's what will happen..

I went to the usual place again today, I was so Damn confused and I just well being with or being near her, just makes me feel so different like I don't have any troubles, even though all my troubles are are and are killing me harder and better than ever and that's what hurts the most...

I was finally so proud I got the courage to speak to her today and it felt fantastic for the pad month Ive been returning here and I've almost felt attached to her, I watched her smile and serve people food and her blonde hair just glow and the light in her just shines through and makes everyone like her feel that way...

I'm supposed to ask this woman called Valerie to marry me... I do hate her!! Who said Lucifer couldn't be reincarnated into a woman, cause trust me if its a woman that woman is Valerie. She is a stubborn, lying, slying devil and I know me being with her doesn't make me any better but I already feel like a better person, just by being around her and already I'm willing to do whatever it takes, just to have her, to claim her as mine and I have to try my hardest to make sure Valerie never figured it out cause if she does... I can't continue my poor Baby.

My parents absolutely love Valerie and they would do anything for her to be they relative. Her father owns the great and outstanding 'Goolich Goldman Travel'. That's her fathers company and its worth billions of pounds even Germany can't afford it, due to what our government had decided to do with all our money and now we have to borrow money, from other countries and that scares me... We are in debts bigger than the graveyards. If only there was someone who understood where I was coming from..just someone.. Perhaps she knows.. More perfectionist to her perfections.. I do wonder why Valerie can't be like her?¿

Clovis Hündert