Which one? (AJustinBieberLoveStory)

Is there an 'us'?

Nicole's POV:

When i woke up i was on a bed, i looked and saw Justin next to me, i was hoping it was a dream, but obviously it wasnt. I didnt say anything to him, i just sat up, with my back facing him.

"Hey" He said as he ran a hand over my back, i shivered and pulled away. I didnt like it. "Um, i ran you a bath" He said, i nodded, getting up and walking into the bathroom. I locked the door. I got out of my bikini and stepped in the warm water, it felt so nice, but at the same time i was in tears. 

I saw all the bruises on my body, my wrists were full of cuts, even on my stomach and my legs, all scarred. I was too thin and i felt like i was worthless. I just wanted to die. But slowly i got out of the bath, wrapping a towel around myself, i realised i had no clothes. I opened the bathroom door and stepped out in just my towel.

"Do you have anything i could wear?" I said, my voice weak.

"Sure" He said as he hopped off the bed, going through his draws, he pulled out a pair of his boxers and an over sized shirt before handing them to me. 

"Thanks" I mumbled before walking back into the bathroom to change into them. When i walked out Justin was on his phone, noticing there were no single beds just double. Im guessing Chaz was with Hannah and Ryan and the girls were in seperate rooms. When Justin noticed me he put down his phone as i walked over to the bed, i crawled across and sat on top, just thinking.

"Nicole.." He trailed off.

It took me a few seconds to reply. "Yeah?" I said quitely.

"Did he do all that to you?" He said, pointing to my arms and legs, i shrugged. "OR did you do it to yourself?"

"Both" I mumbled, he sighed.

"Why?"

"You" I muttered. "You made me do it" I glared at him, the first time i'd looked him in the eyes since he walked out the doors. "You left me at my worst possible moment and you just thought i'd forget well im sorry Justin thats not how it works" I wiped my tears from my eyes.

"Baby im so sorry"

"Dont call me that" I said as i laid down, looking up at the ceiling. Only for Justin to hover over me, he looked me from head to toe. I closed my eyes hoping that when i woke up this would just be a dream. 

"I love you" He told me, i opened up my eyes to see his above mine.

"I wish i could say the same about you" I sighed. "Justin you made me feel worthless, i thought about suicide at one point, because of you i feel like i cant trust anyone around me anymore, im forced to fake smile every day of my life and you know what? I cant do it anymore, i wake up crying in the middle of the night because your on my mind everyday, every hour, your all i think about and it hurts, it breaks me in two, im empty without you" I told him before i burst out in tears again.

"Please dont cry im here now and im never leaving" He said, wrapping his arms around me, i didnt have the strength to pull away from him, it didnt feel right or wrong but i knew i needed him, i needed his love because no one else could give that to me the way he does.

"I never wanted to let you go, you know that right? I thought it be best, i was wrong i know, i know and im sorry" He said as he kissed my head, wiping my tears with his thumbs "We can have a new start, i promise you its gonna be okay from ow on, we're gonna show them how good we are together and that we're unbreakable, just us"

"Is there even an us?"

"Only if you want there to be, now Jasons gone" I shuddered everytime i heard his name. "You were brave out there"