About Me.

A/N

WARNING: You don't have to read this, but continue if you want to read it. Thank you.

First I'm sorry I've been doing so many A/N lately. It just I feel I need to tell you some stuff that doesn't fit into the whole "About Me" thing.

I just want to say I've been feeling really emotional lately and idk why. I've lost tons of people in my life and a bunch of people have given up in me. I don't want any of you to give up on me. I need people to help lift me up , not bring me down. For longer than I remember people have given up on me. I just don't wanna lose some of those I'm closest to, but I sometimes feel like I push them away when I don't mean to. I just try to keep a safe distance so that I don't hurt them. But I still end up hurting some of them. To anyone I've ever hurt in any way I'm sorry. I truly am sorry. I feel like every one just gives up on me. They stop talking to me or just stop in general. I've lost so many and don't want to loose anymore people. I try not to give up on anyone because you'll have that one moment that you need them and they won't be there . They won't be there because you gave up on them so they gave up on you. If you give me a fighting chance , I promise I won't give up on you. Ice never given up on a friend though plenty have given up on me. I've moved so many times I lost track six moves ago. And every time I move I switched schools and had to make new friends. But when your shy from looking so many people, not many people seem to like me. I have an ok amount of friends, but some of them are fake. They act like they care , but they really would use you as a shield of a bullet. They wouldn't fight for me if it came to it. I only truly have two good friends, friends who would kill for me, who will be there no matter what. I  love them to death. Nothing can ever change that. They are my sister's not just my friends. Thank you two so much. I'm not gonna mention names, but they know who I mean. I can't loose you.  right?
My readers are awesome. I'm not gonna leave a long message, because I don't know what to say. I'm really sorry I've slowed down how often I post on this story. I love you boos. Thanks for reading and all that good stuff. I can't really say much more, because of my crying. I really don't know what to do anymore.  I think I might be going into a deep state of depression. I can't stop being upset all the time, and I don't know how to fix it. I could use my boos to help me out, but you don't have to. I'm sorry to place all my troubles on you. I'm not really supposed to have stress or stressful situations. I have ACT Aspires (big test) the week of 4/10-4/16. Then later on in may I have finals. I'm not supposed to stress , and this really doesn't help. But I'm glad to get it all out. In fact this may be the longest author's note I've ever written. Again I'm sorry I dumped all this crazy info on you boos. I love you . And if you read this thank you ,because it's not part of the story and you didn't gave to read it. I love all of my boos so so much.
                          ,Courtney§