Silent scream (Unedited)

Chapter 4

When I arrived at my house,I collapsed on my knees out of breath.I manage to walk in the doorway and crash on the couch.
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Walking into school all I heard was whispering. It was about me, I knew,because my name was in the mix of whispering. I walked up to to my locker grabbing my science books. As I walked in class all the people looked at me. Looking down I walked to the back of class.
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Finally it was time for lunch. I sat with Fang and she told me what everyone was talking about. My cutting. "Look why don't we go to the mall or something to make you feel better?" She said eating more food. "Nah, its fine......uh......I'll be right back." I said rushing out the cafeteria.

As I was running, I bumped into someone falling to the ground. "Oh,look at the emo whore. You gunna go home and cut more?" I reconized that voice. It was Lukes friend. I got up and ran outside under the football feild bleachers.

Why? Was the only thing hoing through my head....why me? "Hey, Carter what are you doing under here?" It was Luke. "Because,of your,my own 'friends',and basicly everyone." I mumbled while doing air quotations.

"And you because you told everyone about my......cutting." I whisperd the last part. He sighed and sat next to me. "I only told Chase the guy from the other day. I thoight I could trust him." He said.

After a few minutes minutes Luke said "Let's skip class for the rest of the day." "Y-ya...I guess......sure." I said hesitantly. We got up and started walking. In the parking lot he stopped bu his car.

"I thought we walking." I said faceing him. "Nah,to long of a walk to where I want to take you." He said pulling out his keys. I nodded and got into the car and we drove off.
Along the way we turned down a gravel road. "What are doing down here?" I asked with a panicky voice. "It's okay it's a suprise." When Luke said that it triggerd an awful memory.

*Flash back* *Carter 10 years old*
"Its okay,I have a suprise." I say patiently while foster daddy stopped the car. We were in the middle no-where and on a gravel road. I never knew parents beat their kids to show love......at least thats what foster daddy said. He opend my door and showed me to the back seat and violently pushed me in.

He pinned me to the seat and ripped my cloths off doing the same to himself. I tried screaming,but all that did was earn me a rough slap in the face. Then I felt agonizing pain from my lower reagion.
*End Flash back*

Thats how I lost my innacence. What seemed like long hours in his car we finally came to a stop. I got out as quickly as I could and took deep breaths.Luke walked into the feild of flowers. As I caught up to him he sat by the cliff and I did the same.

It took me so much not to get up and end it all. "This place is beautiful." I said looking around. "Ya,my mom used to take me here until she left." He said zoneing out.

We hung out for a little longer until he asked "What was wrong when we were in my car?" "Im costerphobic?" It came out more like a question,than an answer. We hung out until sundown.

"Hey can you drive me home?" I said sitting up. "Ya,lets go." We walked to the car and drove away from the feild.
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This was a really long chapter,but I hope you guys like it and sorry if it seems like like a filler chapter.
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