Friends Can Be Saviors

Chapter 1

I was running fast as I could ran and ran but I felt like my body was in slow motion. It was dead at night and it was cold as ice outside but my body was burning I felt like I was on fire. What or who was I running from I don't know, but if I stop I know for a fact I will be dead. I knees ached, my feet pounded against the ice cool road every step felt like a thousand niddles on hot coal. I wanted to get out of this I wanted to give up but I couldn't even if I wanted too because I had some kinda of fire in me that kept me going. But I did stop ...once I was knock off my feet. Everything went black, did I faint? Am I dead? I only thought this happen on TV and in books. I don't even know what happened all I know is I felt nothing.

I felt nothing...

I saw nothing....

I heard nothing....

...and I couldn't speak.
Was this death knocking at my door? Soon I greeted with pain mostly on my right side and I could barley breathe. I never felt so much pain in my life, I actually wished I was dead. But faith had other plans...

Tatiana inhaled deeply and sat up at instantly waking up from her nightmare. She looked at the time and saw it was only 5a.m. 'I only slepted two hours? It felt like 12hours went by'she thought to herself. She saw Katerina and Ezra still sound asleep thank God she didn't wake them up. She decided to get ready for the day. She didn't won't to disturb her friends plus it would take her a longer time to get ready anyways. So she quietly got out of bed and left the room.

Tatianna P.O.V

I covered up with my robe and got my over night bag and closed the bedroom door quietly. I walked the bathroom and started the shower. I slipped out my rode, letting it fall to the ground. Once I got in I let the burning hot water run down my body before lathering with my body wash. I couldn't help but to think about my nightmares. For awhile they stop coming but now their back. So days it gets worse then others. I noticed the easy days are always when I'm with Ezra and Katerina, some days they don't even come at all. Why do they have to keep coming back? It's some about the world that doesn't want me happy I suppose.

I stayed and shower soaking I wanted to clear my head but I couldn't this time. I had too much on my mind. As much a the hot water felt so nice running down my back, I still fault stress and tension. I soon stoped the shower and ringed out my shoulder length hair, I grabbed my dry towel and dryed off in the shower so I wouldn't make a mess. I wiped the fogging mirror and saw that my once semi-straight hair had now curled and shrank into a semi-kinky afro.

I put on fresh pajamas, grabbed my bag and went to the livingroom. I sat on the floor and turned the tv on low. I plugged up my flat irons, I combed my hair and once the flat irons got hot enough I began to straighten my hair again as I watched TV. But I didn't really watch TV yeah I was looking at it but I wasn't to much playing attention of what was happening on the show.

I was thinking about my life now and my past the bit I that I can remember. I barley remember who I was before my accident, I read my old diaries and feel like I'm reading a strangers diary.

The girl I read about was so different from me and many ways. She was so headstrong, tough and completely independent. But she was alone, she was all alone. She was a outsider, she had family but she stood alone, she had no friends. But it didn't bother her all at, its like she accepted her lonliness and embraced it. She'd grow to stand alone through heartships. At the sametime she seemed deattached from her emotions, and she saw the world in a darker way.

(Diary Enrty)
2012

Friends... Family... I have no one. I stand alone in this world. Its always "Family sticks together" well why am I all alone? Or is it just family sticks together when you need me then disappear? Either way I'm tired or the "family sticks together" speeches. And don't get me started on friends. Friends are supposed to be people that care about you, people that stand by you, people that defend you, people that are supposed to be honest and true to you. So why the fuck are all these lying back stadding bitches calling me their friend? And claiming to be my friend? Why do people even say there friends with someone, when their only a "friend" at current times or around current people? Thats not a friend at least not a true friend. To be hinest I dont think true friends exist in the world anyone. Everyone lies, everyone cheats, everyone hurts others. Why is the world so cold? The only way to stay safe is to stand alone, be alone, and trust no one.

She was independent in a way where she didn't need anyone no friends or family. At such a young age she had these deep thoughts that sadden me. Was people that cruel to her? To me? So cruel that I or she couldn't trust no one in the world not even her own family. I couldn't imagine life like that, I can't hardly bare to believe I actually use to live like that. I guess I have to rediscover the world. I just hope its a better world then what I've read so far.

I felted about my head and felted nothing but soft straight hair wow I had finished my hair in a hour it felt like only 10 minutes at the most. I must have been really lost in thought. I put my hair in a simple ponytail then gathered my things and put them away.

It was 6 a.m Erza and Katerina will be waking up soon, so decided to make breakfast with love.