Unaccepted Love

part 1

I heard the door slam, I covered my ears and hid under my bed. My mom isn't at home and my step-brother has come to have his way with me.

Tears rushed down my eyes ,as I was nothing but a helpless child. He grabbed my leg and pulled me from under the bed.

"Why are you hiding, I'm only expressing my love to you," he says when he's drunk.

My mother is 46 and has no choice but to uphold with this. Whenever Jonas, my step-brother, doesn't have his way with me, he tells his dad. His dad would beat my mom and abuse her if they don't get their way.

I remember one afternoon when she had me at school waiting for hours then shows up saying she had more important stuff to deal with than me.

I miss dad . Ever since he died, everything started going wrong. I was traumatized as I was only 12 when he died.

My step-dad often beat me with his belt ,saying I was without manners. I am 16 and I've lost my virginity to my step-brother from the age of 13.

At school I'm laughed at and teased.

I FOUND LOVE AT SCHOOL , IN FAMILY , HOME .......NEGATIVE.

Before I found JESUS CHRIST I was just an empty , broken girl named Ruthel . But now I'm content saved, happy, joyful and have the one love I found nowhere else TRUE LOVE in JESUS.