I wasn't supposed to see you that night.
I'd always told myself I was too good for you,
Teenage ego told me that was true
But it was amazing to see what the years had done to you.
Beautiful eyes, crooked tooth
I hopped in your car and the vibe was effortless
A calming feel, filled with bliss
In my cold, empty driveway we shared our first kiss
I had never felt a kiss like this
Soft, genuine, it filled my insides
With butterflies
Your hand went between my thighs
I'm sure you felt them in me, too
I think you were amazed at what you could do
A cold demeanor toward you I'd always held
But that night all the walls fell.
I wasn't supposed to miss you
The next day when I woke up
I replayed those moments
As I filled my coffee cup
You asked me if you made me happy,
I told you yes. I lied.
Even you weren't enough to fill
The emptiness I felt inside
You tried to shed your light
I remained in my shadowed state
I'll never forget that look on your face
The night in your car when I wouldn't reciprocate
I was cold as that December night
But something in you continued to fight
For a girl who gave you no insight
For a girl who chose flight
I wasn't supposed to call you
A month later out of the blue
You weren't the first guy I'd done that to
But something was different
I couldn't dismiss it
I came in timid
You came out livid
You asked what I want out of this
All I could say was, "You."
You weren't supposed to take me back
I see that now at 9:22
When you're ignoring my passion
And I can't get through
I'm open with my affection
Craving your attention
These days I'm so transparent with you
I think you think
This is what I deserve
I think I think
This is what I deserve
My regret eternally burns
You throw me through curves
Lately I'm barely worth your words
Now, I don't know what we're supposed to do ...
