I lay awake wishing I'd hear my phone buzz with a message from her, I'm hoping I'll see her today. Sometimes when its raining I imagine what she's doing, I wonder if she wishes I was next to her, I wonder if she's awake wondering all the same things about me, I hope I'm never far from her mind. Now I know I'm not the one she thinks of when she needs someone, I know I'm not the person she wants to lean on, goes to, cries on, I know I'm the person that's just there, I know that she'll never come to me when she has a problem, I know I'll never be the person she thinks of first, but I hope she knows that I'll always be there even if she doesn't rely on me, even if she doesn't see me, I'm there smiling at her. She isn't mine to love but, I love her anyway. I just want her to know that one day if she wants me I'll be there in my bar just smiling away. If she ever sees this then she'll know that I finally chose her, even if it'll be a long while before she'll ever think of choosing me.
