Struggles

Chapter 3

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Harry still is abusive, but I promise in the end he won't be this abusive

Well time to get started!

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Tara's POV

Harry left me to my tears. This is the first time he's done anything so physical. Even though I should've seen this coming, this was way too much for me. The tears just came to me and they wouldn't stop. I was too scared to move much so I rolled up into a fetus position. Why can't they just let me alone? 

After a few minutes of weeping to myself, I finally get the courage to get up. I wimp a little as I manage to get on my feet. 

The first thing I do is go to the fridge and get an 3 ice packs. 

I walk over to the other couch that is not wet from Emily's 'accident'. I chuckle at the thought.. 

The couch is literally welcoming me to lay down on it so I don't resist. I lay the ice-packs all over my body; one on my left cheek, one on my right shin, and the last on the upper left arm. He's done so much damage. I can't believe to think I... I lov... I loved this guy. 

I shed a few more tears, my phone went off and my catchy ring-tone rang. I opened my eyes and saw that my mom was calling. I reached for my phone on the coffee table right next to me with my right hand. 

"Hello?" I attempt to say with the most cheeriest voice possible.

"Hey honey, I hope you don't mind, but I'm coming in home late because Mrs. Styles and I are going to dinner together. I have some leftovers in the fridge so help yourself." 

"Okay Mom. I don't mind at all. Stay safe with Mrs. Styles. Have fun and I love you."

"I love you, too Tara." The call disconnects. I'm glad she's out with Mrs. Styles. I need some peace to myself.

So here's my story. Harry and I were best friends since birth, literally. My mom and Mrs. Styles were college besties and they are still friends. They got pregnant around the same time and since then Harry and I were given play dates 24/7. My father was abusive to my mom and he left us one day. I remember as a kid watching her crying on the kitchen floor. I was so confused because I was young, but now I know. Mrs. Styles always helped us out since Mr. Styles also left them. That's when the May twins came into my life. They were new students to Roseville Elementary. In 5th grade, I wasn't so popular and I got bullied. Harry was by my side every time though. I remember holding his hand and taking walks by the bridge over a little pond. 

One day, we were sitting in a field in Spring, with flowers surrounding us. Sounds like a movie doesn't it? He leaned in to kiss me. Just a peck. We were just ten year olds. But within that kiss that lasted less than a second, I felt the passion when our lips met. I never got to feel that spark since then. 

When Tiffany and Nate were presented new students, they were bullied a bit, too. Harry and I liked to help them out and become friends. We were like the three musketeers, instead, four. Then, Tiffany and Nate moved to California, but they visit me or I visit them every year. I miss them so much. They are all I have left, except my mom.

I entered middle school and that's when hell started. Harry, for no reason, ditched me. He completely changed. I thought it was puberty hitting him, but it wasn't. He started hanging out with the guys and girls that bullied me. 

In 7th grade, Emily came to our school. She made fun of me everyday. Life continued.

In 8th grade, Emily and Harry started dating and had their first kiss, in front of me, which broke my heart. 

In 9th grade, Emily and Harry broke up and it was the first year of high school. There were people that didn't know me so I tried to start to make friends. That didn't go well. Emily and everyone who bullied me in middle school spread dirty rumors. Now, I'm the school's biggest loser. I don't care because I know I won't be seeing them after two years.

Over the summer after 9th grade, Harry and Emily got back together. 

Now, I'm in 10th grade. Nothing's really changed. I just wish... I had a friend. 

 I finally make up my mind and decide to sit up. The pain around my face, arm, leg, basically my whole body stings. I grab my phone again to check the time.

6:34 

It's about time to eat dinner. I limp to the kitchen and grab leftovers. 

After a few minutes of preparing everything, I settle down and start eating. It's really nice to eat in peace and have some time to think to yourself. 

I finish 'eating' since I only took a few bites after losing my appetite. I leave the dishes in the sink because I'm too tired to do them anyways. I walk back upstairs to my welcoming room. 

I shouldn't go back to school since all these bruises would be visible. Tomorrow, for my mom, I'll put on loads of concealer and wear long clothes. I'll pretend I have a cold!

That means I get to skip school and not see Harry or is stupid girlfriend.

I lay down on my bed not dressed into PJ's at all. After minutes of thinking to myself, I'm fast asleep. 

Right then, I wake up again. My bed transforms into a bed of flowers. 

What the hell is going around here? 

Out of nowhere, I see Harry frolicking towards me with his happy face. The face that I only used to see when we were friends. It's so good to see him smile again.

I feel like crying, but no tears are being made. Harry rushes towards me and I quickly stand up.

Now, our faces a few inches away. His emotionless lips turn into a smirk. The look he only gave me once, right before our- Our lips meet, but why don't I feel anything. I want to kiss back but I just won't let me. I start to scream. Louder. LOUDER. LOUDER. 

Then, I'm awaken and everything goes away. I don't remember anything that happened. 

What happened? What was that? Am I going crazy? I swear that was Harry about to kiss me for the second time! Why do I still dream or like him after all of his abuse; after all of this pain I've been through for years.

All I do is cry. I make silent weeps through my covers. I'm too scared, too confused, too hurt, to even understand myself. I need to get myself back together. 

Let me try to sleep again.

It's so uncomfortable...

I decided to take off my pants. I strip them off and fall asleep within a minute.

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I know I barely make updates and I hate myself for that. Thanks for reading!!!

Hope you guys enjoyeeddd.

School started and there is already tons of projects and homework and I'm trying not to procrastinate this year.

WISH ME LUCK GUYS

Don't worry. Harry and Tara's relationship will get better over the next two chapters.