The Last Time

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I sat there, analyzing the words he just said.

I can't believe it.

He said it again,

"Emily, I'm getting married."

Then I looked up at him, his eyes full of happiness, joy and hope.

"Emily? " He began to get worried, as i was lost for words. I was frowning, staring at the carpet below my feet that I suddenly found interest on.

"Thats..-"  Oh God, I cant find the right words to say. What was I supposed to say?

"Thats great! Im glad you're getting married!" I forced a smile, even though I felt the tears blurrying my eyes.

His sighed in relief, then he squeezed me with a bear hug "Oh God Emily! I thought you would be mad." then he started to blabber about more things I dont care about.

Damn right I was mad. Really mad.

Ivan Clark, my bestfriend, was getting married. With my other friend, Alison Hemmings. I think you've realized that I was in love with him, so no need to explain.

We just graduated from college, now celebrating, enjoying and having fun the whole summer before we all part ways and go to each other's jobs. But my summer was far from fun.

He was getting married. I wasn't even ready to see him dressed in a fancy tux and waiting for her bride to be as she walked the aisle.

We all grew up together, Me, Ivan, Alison, and more people whom I really care about so much. Ever since we were in Elementary we were always close. Until this far.

We all needed to part ways, work, marry someone, have kids, have grandchildren, and be happy.

I wasnt happy, I was never happy.

Out of all my friends, me and Ivan were always close, I have known my feelings for him since high school, until now. We always had that bond, he was always nice sweet and caring.We did everything together.

It was like we were having a small love affair, at least that's the way I felt.

 He started dating Alison, on our first year in college, and been together since then.

I was the jealous bestfriend, the one always smiling, helping, giving advice to the sweet couple, when deep inside I was torn, empty and furious.

There came the time I would always think why he wouldnt acknowledge even dating me. But I g--"

" Soo, " Ivan said, making me return to reality

"Soo? what?" I asked

" "I want you to promise me that you'll be here with me every step of the way, until I get married."

And as much as I hate him now, I still care for him. He's my bestfriend after all. Im just his bestfriend

"Sure Ivan. I'll be here for you. " I smiled a convincing smile,

This was our last summer together, I'll be here for him. I wouldnt miss this for the world.

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Date Published: Aug. 31, 2013