Dear Whom These Letters Concerns,
Parents during the teen years is way different from when you are a kid on so many levels. For one, when you have two other siblings its hard to get the help you really need. Two, I get no support or concern and have to many expectations to go by.
I remember when I started blocking everyone else out and they didn't even really get concerned about my mental and social health. They didn't mind me being alone for almost 24/7 but complained I never was with them downstairs or outside. I would cry at night and nobody cared. I cut once and I lied saying it was from me dropping my shaver. They told me I better not being doing anything bad and they let me lie straight to their face. They never did anything to help me.
I started getting upset and get irritated with everyone and started snapping a bunch. I got grounded quiet a bit but I was done with everything, including myself. I was tired of endless expectations I had to live by, such as being a typical teenage girl. Problem is i'm not, I like fandoms, heavy metal, and reading. No way I would fit in. Girls in my school are all about sex 24/7 and being hot, makeup perfect, selfies, and sports. Their talk is always the same, boys, sales, sports, and all of those pop/county artists. I can not stand repeating those conversations everyday. I am not into makeup that much, if so gray eye shadow, bunch of eyeliner, and heavily applied mascara. I don't intend to frick frack either so I basically will never want to be in that group, get pressured, and later rumored and beat up.
I am also expected good grades on everything and be the perfect student, i'm not. I'm an honor roll student A's and B's and okay I admit I get some bad grades but I try my hardest to bring them up. Just don't keep yelling at me about them.
Strict rules are what make me irritated the most because how are we supposed to learn when you restrict us from everything? I can't even get on the internet, or have friends without you drilling me and then later telling me you don't like them because 'gasp' they dye their hair pink. I guess that fits in with the stereotyping they always do. I understand you want us safe but its kind of pathetic how everybody can do things I can't do. Like play online games with my friends, or do something without them breathing down your neck.
They used to care so much about how I'm doing and how was my day. I normally lie and say it was fine, but it was nice to know maybe they actually cared. Now its just 'get your homework done' and worrying about the others and never making sure you give your first born a little acknowledgement that they exist and you will get back to them soon. Rather than leaving them all alone in a jumbled mess of problems. Its sad in a way they never make sure that my day was good or not. Or asking me if I was okay or not even though I was going to lie. Stopping me to give me a hug, maybe come to my room and sit down and ask if i'm alright that if i'm feeling okay since I haven't been in contact with humans all weekend. Parents should take the time to make sure all their kids are good and happy, and don't leave any behind. It hurts so much to feel the pain as if you maybe on your own. They still provide for you but never make sure its all okay. Maybe parents should take the time and think and realize the things they missed, or check up on their kids, because you know what? Some of them might not be okay as you think they might actually be. Remember that next time you look at your kid, stop them and ask if they are okay, how was their day, or maybe go out to eat and chat. Don't forget they have feelings and thoughts, they went through a social chaos at school and they need to probably vent off. Help them get through the thing they call School. Its not the same as they remember it and we don't know how to survive. Help us.
-Rose
Letter 4
