Authors note: WARNING- Before I start the first chapter I want to thank you for reading! But also that in this chapter their is SELF HARM, and DEPRESSION involved. I also use both the name Sean and Jack throughout the story. Other than that I really hope you enjoy!
Sean's POV:
Life is good. The channel just hit 8 million subscribers! I have a fan base that cares about me, and a loving girlfriend who I try and Skype every night! But recently I have been very busy and we haven't Skyped in like a month! I decide I needed to talk to her, So she doesn't think I was ignoring her. Just before I was going to Skype her, I got a message. "Just in time." I say as I look at my phone to see a text from my girlfriend. *Click* "Sean, I'm really sorry but I can't do this anymore. Long distance is not working. I love you, but I have people I can be in a relationship with that is not hundreds of miles away. I'm sorry Sean.... I'll always remember you." I read that text hundreds of times, it still didn't sink in. The woman I love just broke up with me... What do I do?
I sit in my room and do nothing, Luckily I have pre-recorded videos. So I can afford to take the day off. I don't know what to do. I love her. Why did I put her off for so long? Should have tried harder to keep her? All of these things just start filling my head. Then when I thought I would never feel this way again, I feel anxiety. People don't know this, But years before YouTube I struggled with depression, and anxiety. I had anxiety attacks almost every day. But once I started doing YouTube, I never had another one, until now. I feel like I am worthless, nothing. I feel like nobody cares for me. I never thought I would even think of attempting this again, but I hated feeling this pain! The only thing that removes the pain is self harm... But, I haven't cut my wrists for 3 or 4 years. Now though I feel like I need too... that's all I can do to take the pain away. The only thing that can help me. I walk into the bathroom and grab my razor, sit myself down in the bathtub and put the razor up too my wrist. "I'm Worthless!" I scream as I slit open both wrists, Curl up in the bathtub, and cry.
I know it's sad! I'm sorry! I promise it will get better!
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RomancePLEASE READ FIRST (This story is all my own work ©) This is my first story and it's of one of my all time favorite ships... SEPTIPLIER! Again keep in mind this is my first ever story. WARNING: This story does include SELF HARM, DEPRESSION, HOMO...
