Adopted By Dahvie Vanity

Chapter Five

Emily  P.O.V

I woke up. Damn my head. It was pounding. Someones hand was around my waist. I turned over to face the person. Jayy. He was still sound asleep. I nuzzled into his chest. He smelled so good. Like Vanilla. Mmmm. I smiled and started tracing his chest tattoos. Why can't I be normal for once? I got down and felt a scar. Wait What! I traced it and leaned down to kiss it. It was hot compared to his body.

I looked back up and he was asleep still. I snakes out of his arms and went into the living room. I sat on the couch and brought my knees to my chin. It was raining outside. I got up and sat next to the window.

Why was I so helpless sometimes? Why did I hurt people around me? Why did I continue to let the past haunt me? This is it. I'm starting new. I want to be a better person. I want to be something important not something worthless.

I got up and went back in the room to change. Jay was still asleep. How adorable. I went into my bag and grabbed my black tank top that was low cut and showed the top of my breasts and clevelage and was gruffly at the top, my black sweater thing that you see pregnant people wear, my black slacks and black rounded heels. I curled my hair, I put my upside down cross necklace on, and the earings that matched. I did my make up in a thick wing and I put black eye shadow and clear lip gloss. I walked out and Jayy was still asleep. I went in the kitchen and made breakfast.

I finished making the chocolate chip pancakes, Bacon, muffins, eggs and I cut up some water melon. I put two plates on two different trays and put the food on them. Then I put a napkin and a fork on each of the tray then I put coffee on each the tray. Dad first. I picked up the tray then went into dads room. I set it down and went to shake him. "Dad, wake up. Its ten o clock. Dad. Daaadd. DAD FOOD!" He jumped up and looked at me with foggy eyes. "What's up sweetheart?" I laughed. "I made food" I said pointing at the tray. He smiled and said thank you.

I walked out and went into Jayy's room with the food. "Jayy. Jayy wake-up." Damn he was a heavy sleeper. I smiled. I bent down and lucked the side of his face. His eyes opened wide and he shouted. "Eww what the hell was that for?" I laughed and picked up the tray and set it on his lap. "This is why." He laughed. "Thank you little flower...what about yours? " I smiled so he wouldn't know. "I ate while cooking. " He smiled and said ok. Then he looked down.

I like your necklace. I smiled. "Thanks." He pointed to.my necklace. "You know if you want to, I can take you to the church I go to if you would like. " I smiled. "Sure, I would love to check it out." He smiled and said ok.

I walked out and went back into the living room. I sat on the couch and pulled my legs under me. I layer my head on my hand and closed my eyes. Why was I so tired? I heard someone come out and then I heard dishes being placed on the sinks. Then I felt someone sot next to me. I switched sides and leaned into their sides.

It was Dahvie. "Dad....are you mad at me?" He kissed my forehead. "Of course not Em. We all have done it at some point in our lives. It's just the sevarity of it that I was supprised." I opened my eyes and looked at him. He was crying. I got up and sat in my dads lap and hugged him. "Dad I'm sorry." He hugged me. "Why didn't you tell me?" I brought my self back and looked at him. He was talking about the baby. "I...I.." I crashed back into his chest and sobbed..hard. "I-I didn't want to. I wasn't ready. Its all my fault. I should have begged them to take me out. Its all my fault. I deserved what I got. Its my fault she died. Its m-my fault. I shouldn't have d-done i-it." I cried even harder. Its my fault my baby is dead. I'm a horrible person.

Flashback

I was sitting in the bathroom of the hospital. I stole some pills. Didn't know what they were all I knew is that they wouldn't be traced in my system. I unscrewed the top and took five. I threw the rest away as well as the bottle. Then I started coughing up blood. I screamed and the nurse came running in. She ran back out and yelled for help. Doctors came back in. They put me to sleep and when I woke up the nurse was crying and holding a bloody blanket. She showed me Tue baby. It was disgusting. I scramed and cried. I killed my baby. They came in and put me back to sleep.

End of flashback

I cried even harder into my dads chest. He was rubbing my back and then I started to scream. He rocked me back and forth. "Shh ..its ok baby..it's not your.." he tried to say but I yelled and jumped out of hos arms. "IT IS MY FAULT. I KILLED MY BABY! ITS ALL MY FAULT AND IM A HORRIABLE PERSON AND DESERVE TO DIE!!" I yelled and ran into Jayy's room but he caught me before I could get into the bathroom.

"LET MY GO MONROE! LET ME GO! I DESERVE TO DIE!! LET ME GOOO!" I screamed. "Emily calm down. Dahvie tried to come in but Jayy shook his head. I tried to claw my way out of his grasp. "LET ME GO JAYY PLLEASE." He rapped his legs around mine and put my arms around me like an X. Damn mental ways. "No Emily. You need to talk to me. I heard what you said. What did you do?" I fell to the floor and told him. He let me go halfway through my entire story and I crawled into the corner and put myself into a ball and cried the rest of the story.

I looked at Jayy through my hair. He was crying. I took this chance. I ran into the bathroom and slammed the door shut and locked it. I turned on the shower all the way or almost all the way to make it steamy. I heard pounding on the door but I ignored it. I stripped and got into the shower. I sat on the floor and let the water run over me. I was freezing. It didn't help.

I heard the key go in and unlock the door. Then the door opened. I heard Jayy "go get some clothes. Like fuzzy pants and long sleeved shirts. Warm clothes." Then Jayy closed the door. He opened the glass door.

I looked at him. His face was soft. He turned the water off. I rapped myself into a ball. It was so cold. He must have noticed because he went out and came back with a fluffy towel. He opened it and rapped me in it. "I-I'm s-so c-cold." I cried into his shoulder and he just hugged me. Dahvie came in. He had my yellow and black plaid fuzzy pants and a black long sleeved shirt and some black fuzzy socks. Dahvie handed them to Jayy and walked out. Jayy dressed me. He picked me up and carried me into his room ams sat me on the.bed next to Dahvie. I curled up next to my dad. He put his arms around me and stroked my hair. Jayy got on the bed and curled next to me. I was shiviering. Jayy pulled the comforter over us and he put an extra blanket on me. I turned on my back and curled next to Jayy and Dad curled next to me.

I was still cold. "D-dad I-I'm still cold." Jayy looked down and his eyebrows creased. He put his lips to my forehead. "Dahvie she is burning up." Jayy said. Dahvie did the same as Jayy. "Shit." He got up and went into the next room. I heard rummaging. Was I sick?