Hurt

Last Day

"Do you ever wonder why we're here?" asked Newt, laying on his back in the soft green grass. The question had been boiling in his mind for weeks now, keeping him up late at night. He didn't know why the question bothered him so much, but it ate at him constantly.

"Sometimes I guess. Why do you ask?" Amelia responded, turning her head to face the blond boy.

"I dunno." Newt shrugged, looking away from his best friend.

She gave him her famous I-Know-You're-Pulling-My-Leg look. "Newt, don't give me that klunk. What's on your mind?"

"Nothing."

Amelia gave him a doubtful look, then rolled her eyes. "You're so damn stubborn." she chuckled, closing her eyes.

Newt didn't respond, just met her statement with silence.

After a few minutes, Newt turned and saw Amelia's eyes were closed, her breathing slowing as she fell asleep.

"Amy?" he whispered after a minute of watching her. She didn't stir. Thinking it was the best way to tell her, he began.

"Amy, I've decided." Newt said quietly. "I'm gonna do it."

Silence.

"I'm going into the Maze tomorrow morning. I won't be coming back."

Amelia let out a soft sigh in her sleep, turning towards Newt with her arms tucked tightly against her chest.

"I hate this place. Hate it. I can't live like this anymore. I'm going to jump from one of the walls in the Maze. I'm so sorry." Newt was crying now, tears racing down the cheeks. "Amelia, I love you. Oh, God. Amelia, I love you so much. I never wanted to hurt you. I... can't!" he bit his lip, and tasted blood.

Newt leaned over and pressed his lips to Amelia's forehead, closing his eyes as he prayed she would understand why. Pulling back, his heart broke a little more. If that was even possible.

He wiped his tears from his eyes and stared at Amelia, hoping she could change his mind.

Maybe he could- No. But it would be his last chance. Do it, do it now!

Newt squeezed his eyes shut and laid his mouth against Amelia's lips. Oh god, he had longed for weeks to taste her skin... She began to stir and Newt immediately sat upright, taking a deep breath and hoping he didn't look like he had been crying.