a good way to vent. my medical story

so ever since I can remember ive had black outs. and me not knowing any different I thought it was normal. up until about 6 years ago whwn I started fainting and mum asked what happen. when I explain to her what happens she asked how oftern it happens. so I told her it was everyday so she was then quwstioning why I didnt tell her and I said I though it was normal. after about 2 years of trying to work out what it was and getting no answers we stopped going to doctors and I started to grow out of it. thats when the anxiety set in and I couldnt play basketball because id physically stop breathing and the first time it happen I could of died, its a scary experience being awake and aware of everything yet not being able to breath. I honestly though I was going to die. about a year afterr that I was diagnosed with depression. ive had it since I was 13 and it wasnt until I was 17 that I was diagnosed with it. I had attempted suicide id cut myself, had regular mental break downs at school but my parents hadnt noticed because im one of 5 girls and I have a sister that is extremely high maintenance. to much to explain today. but I have always been picked on by my sister especially grace the high maintenance one. over the years it had taken a tol on me and when I started VCE at school everything just went down hill. I had a operation to remove 2 large cyst s from my ovary and given that ovarian cancer is a possibility in my family it was stressful to think that I might have one of my ovaries removed. although that didnt happen I had to go on hormone pills to stop them from coming back, ive also been told I have to have kids early if I want them because I could be going to menopausal in my late 20s. I was 17 when I had that operation. I am 20 in a few months and I am going for another operation because I might have endometriosis. I have just started a new job and ive had alot of time off work because of the pain I am experiencing. for my age it seems a bit ridiculous but over the years ive kinda got used to it although it does frustrate and upset me quite a bit because I can never get a straight answer. it gets really hard sometimes to realise that there are people out there with much bigger problems than I but you then realise that everyone has problems ans when there is something going on witth youself ita hard to think about anything else. im not sure what else to say and I dont want to bore people with my sob story but ive been feelling really down and ive been told to vent when I get this way so I thought this might be a good idea. excuse any misspelled or grammar errors I wasnt thinking of any of that when I wrote this