On the tenth of July, just like any other day, like every three to four times a minute, a child was born. I was one of them; it was by six o'clock in the evening, where the day and night are usually in middle.
Growing up, the family resemble like any other family present in the country. I lived with my parents and grandparents, practically raised by both parties with colliding views and opinions and life. They are just like the day and the night during six o' clock.
Absorbing it all up, I am made aware of two sides of everything about life but not seeing them myself. It was a self-inflicted solitude within the walls of the house for I know both parties from home will not feel all together pleasant if they are to be proved wrong about what they told me, so most of time; I prefer not to know although I have to know.
I tread with fear. The fear that inculcates in the meaning of life, if there was any left unsaid.
There were times that I usually wonder that every contrasting event in my life, the circumstances with the people around me and the things happening in the world would come to an end. Immediately, the answer will usually be no.
Someone once told me that, every people walking in earth has free will and that he pointed out that if people will freely choose synchronicity then the world can dream of a better tomorrow with a ray of hope. I said it was impossible then he told me that it was the primary reason that it was impossible. People preordain things and close themselves to the limited world of facts that they are too blind to see the possibilities.
He might be right.
It did not matter what the facts of my life tells about me or how I seem to be based on the history written on me. Nothing really mattered as long as I see things and continue to absorb things. It does not matter whether my childhood was a nightmare, my age, my appearance, reputation, or the fact that I have to follow timetables.
He wanted to tell me that so much is lost than gained when we go against the order established by the world around us. Free roam has cost so it is never a free roam. All that is needed is synchronicity with nature of how we are. It is like stretching your limbs up in the air and breathing in for the first time. I just have to let go.
The question would be, will the people around me let me let go?
I will find my synchronicity and I have the feeling I am almost there.
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