I lost one of my best friends abut 2 weeks ago..they were also my partner (the person's genderfluid) all because I cut again. Since they left I've been cutting almost every single day! My stomach has words like 'fat' 'fuck up' 'ugly', my hips are once again filled with cuts as are my ribcage. My hands are starting to fill up now also and my upper arm, thank god that they haven't seen or figured it out yet. My parents that is. I saw them today, walked right past me..gave me a death glare and I couldn't take it so I took the blade and cut my hand and and once again wrote words. My wrists are soon going to be filled again and it's almost summer..I don't know what to do. I'll just have to have long sleeved until they fade a bit. Because it doesn't get very warm here actually so I think I could get away with that, I hope they don't notice.
On a better note I got a girlfriend about 3 days ago, on the 12th of April. I know I moved on quickly or "moved on", I love her so much and I've never believed in soulmates but now I kinda do because Bea(as her name is, I call her princess though and I'm her pirate) and I have been through so much since we first got to know each-other in 4th grade. We got together then broke up, then both got depressed, tried to commit suicide and everything like that but we've still stuck together in thick and thin. Always been there for each-other.
Well that was all for today.. Maddox xxx
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Diary
Short StoryThis is going to be like my diary sort of, just so I can write my feelings out there and yeah. That's that.
