An Evil Kidnapping

Chapter Thirteen; Discussing

WARNINGS: Talks about past rape and torture

Please excuse this chapter, I had major writers block and it was so hard to write it. I'm sorry it's so short too
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Previously; "Sebastian raped me."

Magnus stared at his boyfriend in shock, his hand stopping it's movements. Alec, feeling his hand stop, looked away from Magnus in shame, a single tear falling down his face.

Magnus couldn't believe it... Didn't want to believe it. His perfect, precious, Alexander... Was raped? It was one thing knowing he was tortured - but knowing he was raped was totally different. Magnus would have to be even more careful touching Alec, doing anything to Alexander. Magnus almost cried, his shadowhunter did not deserve this - did not deserve anything Sebastian did to him.

Alec feared the worst at the warlock's silence. Magnus would want nothing to do with him anymore. He would never touch Alec like that ever again. He wouldn't want to be together anymore. A few more tears fell out of his eyes, but Alec ignored them.

Instead, he pulled away from Magnus and curled himself up to make himself look smaller. He said in a shaky voice, "I-I understand if you don't want to be w-with me anymore. It-it's fine. I understand. I-I don't t-think I'd w-want to be with m-me either. I'll just leave-"

He moved to get off the bed, but before he could, Magnus grabbed his wrist. Alec stopped, eyes finding the warlock's - half on the bed, half off.

"Alexander..." Magnus said slowly, trying to find the right words, "Of course I still want to be with you. What you just told me won't change anything. Well, not anything. But it won't change much. I love you Alexander, nothing could stop that."

"I love you too Mags," Alec said, a bit more hopefully, "You... You still want me then? This isn't going to be easy Magnus. I'll try my best, but I don't know."

"I know it won't be easy, darling," Magnus said quietly, pulling Alec closer to him so Alec's head was on his chest and Magnus's hand was back in Alec's hair, the other hand on Alec's back; rubbing soothing circles on it.

"And besides," Magnus said, smirking a little, "I love a challenge."

Alec giggled (which he'd deny later), and let out a quiet yawn, then sneezed. Magnus noticed the yawn and said, "Sleep darling. I'll be here when you wake up."

Alec sneezed, then coughed, then yawned, then finally fell asleep. Magnus chuckled quietly at his adorable and sick boyfriend. The warlock snapped his fingers and another blanket appeared. He put it over a sleeping Alec, kissing the boy's forehead, and laid down next to him. Magnus fell asleep quickly, reveling in the familiar heat Alec gave off that he hadn't felt in a while.

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Magnus woke up to Alec bolting out of bed, screaming loudly. Magnus went to try and put his hand on Alec's shoulder, but he didn't know if it was a welcome gesture. So he just left it hovering over his shoulder until Alec stopped screaming.

Alec was panting heavily, and there were tears running down the boy's face - a sight that broke Magnus's heart. Magnus opened his arms, letting Alec have the choice whether he wanted to be hugged or not.

Alec glanced at the arms warily, as if they were going to bite him, before his eyes went to Magnus's face. There were tears glistening in the warlock's eyes, tears that Alec caused. The sight made Alec feel guilty, enough to make the boy crawl into Magnus's arms.

The warlock kept his boyfriend tightly in his arms, letting the boy sob into his shoulder, sitting in silence until he heard Alec's breathing slow down and his body become less tense. Then, Magnus whispered, "Do you want to talk about it?"

Alec shook his head violently. Magnus said, while in the process of laying down with a shadowhunter in his arms, "Okay darling. You don't have to talk about it unless you're comfortable."

Alec nodded slowly, eyes slowly shutting before he was fast asleep again. Magnus sighed, this was going to be a lot of work. But it was worth it for Alexander. The warlock looked down at the sleeping boy in affection. The boy was going to be the death of him one day.

Magnus thought, we will overcome this. We will, before drifting off to sleep again.