I need time to calm down
To look in a mirror plastered in my frown
Filled with disgust and shame
Putting on a mask, playing a game
My heart isn't whole
For a so called "God" doesn't want my black soul
I've been lied to
I don't know what to do
Should I open my body to it
Or should I fight this shit
Because I'm scared
Without my act I'm bare
People leave my side
I'm no longer kind
I will try to fight
With my guards held up tight
But if lose lose
What shall I choose
For if pain becomes my love
All I had will be done.
