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I have done many stupid things while being in my depressed state, many things that effect my entire life. The things that have affected me the most is, I've been bullied all my life in high school and been picked on for my small size and the way I acted but I trying to be my own person and not follow others but that go to plan so I put on a different approach to people but I still got bullied and I always ran away from my problems and never faced them and it drove me to start self harming. I tried thinking of other solutions and failed and now I have permanent scars from it and I will never forget how and why I got those scars. And even in college now I'm still getting bullied for my choices and the way I am around people, I hide the fact that it's killing me on the inside when people ridicule me for the way I am and I'm still self harming now I just don't see any other way and I don't think I can ever stop. I know it's not a good road to go down but in my mind I haven't got any other options to help myself. I am a lost cause in the world, and I can never be fixed and that's the way it's gonna stay till the day I die. Another thing I have done is sometimes when I have a cigarette I burn my arms just to replace my emotional pain with physical pain. I just don't see any other way, the only thing that's keeping me in this world is my music and my close friends without them in my life I would of been gone from this world a long time ago and would of just been "just another statistic of teenage suicide"
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Depressing Times
Non-FictionThis is the story of how I live with depression, just because I look happy and cheery that doesn't mean I'm okay. This thing that lives inside of me its a curse! A curse that cannot be lifted. I go day to day suffering and always feeling like I'm al...
