Crooked Neighbor, Crooked Heart

Seven

<Ava>

I let out a sigh of relief as I take a seat on the subway.

Finally going home.

It has been one hell of a day what with Jenna dragging us mercilessly through the city and my run in with Shane.

Shane.

I shudder just thinking about how it felt when he grabbed me. I don't even know how that good for nothing leech found me here in this giant city with a population of millio-. Mother ... FUCK.

Did you know that when I broke up with him she took his side?!

Clearly this isn't making much sense so let me explain.

Ok so ever since I was like eight Shane and I were practically engaged. Our families were old friends dating back to when getting a carriage ride wasn't just reserved for engagements in Central Park.

We had big names and big trust funds so obviously it made sense that we would end up together. Quite the fairy tale right?

Wrong.

Believe me at the time I was thrilled.

My mother and I would talk about how it would be the wedding of the century; bigger than even a royal ceremony.

We would spend weekends going through books of wedding gowns from designers such as Oscar de la Renta, Marchesa, and the like.

The best was window shopping at Tiffany's, Cartier, and Harry Winston; it was magical.

But I digress.

When I was sixteen The Event happened. After that things were never the same.

To put it simply The Event triggered an existential crises. Shane was my boyfriend at the time so like every other teenage girl I thought "Gee he really loves me and I can rely on him no matter what."

Way off on my part.

I was weak and vulnerable and he took advantage of that.

He got me into drugs and alcohol (stuff I didn't even know he did) and (like the naive little teenager I was) I believed him when he told me it could heal me.

Instead it dragged me deeper and deeper into darkness and,

before I knew it, I was blind.

It took me almost being - raped, to see what I had become; a monster. From that moment on I told myself to get my shit together.

Unfortunately I had no fucking idea how I was going to do this.

Until I met Jenna.

She came from a very very rough place but came out a fighter with an insane amount of compassion.

With her advice and support I sobered up, cleaned up, and dumped Shane's worthless ass (this would be the point where my mom took his side).

However even with her friendship I still felt ... Empty. But I found drawing and it saved me.

Sorta like how Zayn did today.

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Sooooooo what's everyone think?!?! this wasn't what I had planned to do but a friend of mine gave me the idea of doing a flashback and I thought it was genius so I did this.

It was a good way to give you more insight into Ava's past and stuff. re reading it now though I realize that I just have more unanswered questions ... oops.

Anyway vote and comment if you enjoyed it :) thanks for reading you are all awesome! LOVE YOU xx