it's been two weeks since Yoongi himself invited me to hang out with his friends, and now, that I'm finally one of them, things couldn't get any better
from time to time, each of the boys invite me to parties and hang outs at the mall
there's Jungkook and Jimin, both as welcoming as Yoongi if not more, we grabbed some ice cream last weekend and walked through the streets admiring the stores, buildings, people walking back and forth.
but lately..
lately he hasn't dared to look me in the eye, today, in our library session, we were supposed to find a partner and write down on a minister page the evolution of the human species, how it all began until now, the modern days
my mind and heart both agreed on asking Yoongi to help me out with this work, since before, when I wasn't all that social, talking to the teacher and convincing him to let me do it by myself was the best option at hand, then, after being a part of the biggest--most popular--well known group in the school building, I no longer felt shy and made even more friends, almost everyone in our classroom claims me the joker, because my puns and funny faces brightens up their days, which has turned out to be a good feeling
oh--like I was saying--on my way to ask him if he wanted to be my partner, Hoseok took that opportunity instead and rushed towards me yelling out 'let's get together Tae!' and because the word 'rude' is not in my personal list of things to be or do, I accepted
from the corner of my eye, witnessing Yoongi walking back and shuffling around to get to his seat literally told me everything
he was disappointed, he felt betrayed
"Taehyung, do you know what's wrong with milky skin? he hasn't been talking much, and it's weird"
Jin...
"n-no, I have no idea, try asking him?"
"I will, but after school, we're in a library"
nodding and taking out my pencil plus the page and a few markers, Hoseok and I began working on our assignment
whereas Yoongi and Namjoon on the other hand, sat all the way in the back, barely in sight
"Tae, stop staring at other people and continue writing, you don't want the teacher to scold us like last time do you?"
"s-sorry, I'm on it"
<<>>
tch.. look at him
being all lovey dovey in front of everyone
"Yoongi, your eyes are going to fall out of their sockets, I mean who are you even looking for?"
"no one in particular, keep reading"
Hoseok... why'd you take him away from me?
again?
it's probably the 5th time in less than 3 days that--no, wait.
why am I complaining?
just focus
he probably doesn't even like me anymore
b-but, I do.. I like you, Tae
"I'm a mess"
Namjoon gingerly leaned on his elbows, beaming at me with a bitter smile;
"agreed, your drawing of the homo sapiens looks like my foot"
of course, only my best friend manages to make me smile
but not like an idiot
that's his job
to drive me crazy
to make me happy
I'd be risking a lot but..
it's time.
