I Miss You So Bad (Jinhwan Fanfic)

The Letter That I Will Cherish Forever

SARANG'S POV

As ripped open the envelope in the most gentle way possible of course clumsy me got a paper cut on my finger. I rushed to my bed side drawer and grabbed a band aid. I put it on then proceeded in opening the letter. This is what it said. . . 

Dear Sarang, 

         I just wanted to let you know a few things before you let me go mentally cause i know you wont do that for atleast the first year of us being apart, but before I start rambling on I tapped a band aid at the back of this letter knowing how bad you are with envelopes. Okay, so first i want you to please dont freak out and please promise you will be my friend no matter what happens! Which im pretty sure you will be knowing how understanding you are. Okay, Im just gonna get on with it. Remember that first day we met back in preschool? You know the start of our friendship? Well I wanted to let you know that was the start of my life. You made my life, my life and you made it such a fun ride. I actually dont know how life is gonna be without you. I have told you everything about me except one thing, and Ive been keeping this from you for quite some time now. I think its finally time that I tell you.

         I am madly in love with you Sarang and i promise to wait for you and your reply to this until the next time I talk to you. Im not telling you what im doing where i moved for it is a surprise and you will find out eventually, but im so so so sorry if i cant skype you even at all. I Love You Sarang I really do way more then a friendly love, but Im doing something that Im sure you will be proud of when you find out. I promise that i will meet up with you in person soon someday, but for now please just promise me that you will never forget me, for i will never forget you. 

          I apologize in advance if i cant do anything but text, but i promise that when we meet up again in person. I will make it up to you. Mark my words. I PROMISE TO SEE YOU, KIM SARANG, IN THE FUTURE AND MAKE IT UP TO HER FOR LEAVING HER. I bought you a gift by the way other then the necklace that i already gave you. I hid it in your room the night we had the sleepover. Its hidden underneath your bed. Oh my i hope you havent found it before reading this letter for it would have caused a lot of confusion and embarissment. Haha Anyway. Look underneath you bed and pull out the box. In there there should be a box of chocolate, a stuff yg family krunk bear and a mini box. Please take out the mini box, now open it. Inside is a ring. Yes a ring. It is a promise ring from me to you. Please promise that you will be mine and that we will be together one day. I totally understand if you dont want to except it, but please at least give it some thought before saying no. 

         I hope that you will never forget me and that when i see you again we can start a beautiful relationship, and if not a relationship. I hope we can restart our friendship from where we left off. I Love You Kim Sarang. As a Friend and as more. I Love You. <3 

Love, your best friend and hopefully one day boyfriend, Kim Jinhwan.

After reading the letter I was tearing up. Of course they were mixed feelings in the tears though. Happy because he said he actually likes me back, where i thought he never would. Yet, im also very sad because I dont know when ill ever see him again, and as he said he will be busy doing whatever hes doing. Not just that but I was planning on trying out for Jeju's home Volleyball Team. So, if I make it in, I will probably be even busier then he is. I also promised myself that I would write a song a day and maybe one day I will live my actual life long dream of becoming a YG artist

Ever since I found out Jinhwan was gonna be leaving I promised myself that I would bombard myself with a bunch of different tasks just to get myself busy, so i would finally let go of him mentally. For example starting tomorrow I will be taking cooking classes early in the morning everyday. Then on Mondays, Wednesdays, and Fridays I will be busy with my 1st part time job at a bakery down the street from my house. Then on Tuesdays, and Thursdays I will be working at my second part time job at the only local mall near my house. Then as I told you my nights are reserved for hopefully volleyball practices and song writing. I will let go of him eventually, but obviously it will still take a long time. Im looking forward to a very busy busy summer just because i aligned it to be this way. 

I actually have no one to look forward to when I start school again. I might try to change myself to get more friends that are girls. See a lot of people refer to me as the schools little cutie and to be completely honest i dont understand why Im honestly so ugly, well thats my opinion. Appearantly a lot of guys like me but ill be honest since I was little i kinda hated boys, well except Jin jin. I guess it was just because he was so different. Maybe if I change to be more boyish and less cute less guys will like me. Right now a lot of the girls dont like me cause they think im a player who likes all the boys who like me, but Im not at all. Ive only liked Jinhwan my whole life. So, maybe I should change for the better. When i come to school on the first day of grade 11 no one will recognise me. Im changing myself a bit starting by cutting my hair. My hair right now is up to my waist. The day before summer ends I scheduled myself for a hair cut I will be cutting my hair to just above my chest. Now time to live my life without my other half.

I hope all of you enjoyed that chapter. Sorry if its a hard story to follow and if there is not much Jinhwan for the next chapter or two. Its only because I need to explain the story, but I promise it will all fall into place. Anyway thank you luv you all <3!!!