I was wearing my special shirt today, yes I had one surprisingly under all of my black/gray sweaters & band tees. It was a dark blue with floral at the bottom, the occasion? Well it's me and my fiancée samuels anniversary of two years, I trusted him with everything & I depended on him to be my husband forever. We only lived in a small apartment, in New York City. I was out in the street walking the sidewalk leaving my car parked a block away from the store i was going to, it was A small shop called Lenny's, it had all of the special ingredients I needed for our anniversary dinner tonight. I wonder if he even remembered our anni i thought to myself as i walked down the sidewalk to the store. I mean, I guess it wouldn't be that big. Walking into the store I shrugged these thoughts away, knowing if I didn't I wouldn't remember everything I needed. Looking down at my list I was walking down an aisle only glancing up once in a while I came to an abrupt stop as I hit something as hard as rock, looking up i realized I walked into a muscular guy with tattoos up his right arm & long midnight black hair swaying to the side of his face & head, his bright blue eyes looking down at me, I had to say he was quite tall compared to me. Quickly snapping out of my trance I blinked quickly & stuttered the words "s-sorry." And quickly walked past him. Feeling his eyes on me like a cat watching its next victim. Slowly I stopped and turned around & looked at him, looking at me instantly turning bright red I felt all over my face & hair seeing if there was anything in it, finally I spoke, "I'm sorry, can I hel-p you?" He finally snapped out of it & shaked his head as if he was daydreaming & spoke slowly, his voice staying cool & soft, "no, sorry." And then he just walked away, me still red as a tomato i shook my head & turning on my heel & whispered "idiot" to myself, oh great i was talking to myself. perfect. I look down at my list & began walking again going to get all off my ingredients & double checked it after I retrieved everything, then smiled in relief getting to my car that was silver and tiny, it's all I could afford. Spending most of my money on our dinner tonight, I wasn't complaining I mean, Samuel put up with me all of the time. I owed him. Finally I was on my drive home listening to some BMTH, forgetting about the incident with the beautiful guy at the store. Before getting to me & Samuels tiny apartment I saw that his ex & also his new "bestfriend"Emileighs car in the building we lived in, I knew she hated me. She loved Samuel of course, jealousy was the only thing to break them up. She was a beauty, with long brown hair & tattoos along her right arm & a piercing at her bottom lip, she had bright red lips, her body had curves in the right place.i parked the car Sighing I looked down at my body & shaked my head at the flat chest & skinny waist. I was only proud of my hair & tattoos. My tattoos ran down the side of my breast to my hip, of a bird standing on a beautiful blossom tree, it was gray & bluish green. My hair was long in layers dark red my bangs going down my forehead swaying to the side, I had naturally proofed hair which made it easy in the morning. I was also only 5"1 & a half inch. I had two piercings one in my nose & one in my natural bright red lip, I only had my lip one in $ my hair up in a high pony tail, no top eyeliner. & gauges the size of my pinkie, they were bright pink tunnels. Finally gathering my groceries after thinking about my flaws. I walked up the stairs careful not to fall & opened our door quickly so I could hide the ingredients walking in on the most horrific view, Samuel on top of Emileigh, making love. They didn't notice me walk in & I stared for a whole 2 minutes in shock my jaw on the floor, before dropping my things running out quickly falling down the last two steps hitting the ground hard everything became blurry and I told myself not to cry. I pulled myself off of the ground, dont cry. dont cry. i told myself over & over again. by the time I was up Samuel was running out with boxers on & screaming my name, Emileigh right behind him with a huge smirk on her face. I stood up running to the car Samuel on my heels i tried to open the car door quickly my hands shaking and it was locked. I fumbled with it until Samuels pale hands came up to mine and grabbed them tightly turning me towards him, I fought my tears with everything I had looking down I began to shake from holding in my tears. Samuel began to speak "Red.. I'm so..-", Emileigh cut him out "Don't apologize, you loved every second of it." Her piercing voice stung in my ears, I pulled my hands away roughly & looked at him, daring to speak "w-why?" His face looked pained, like he was hurt. Then I shook my head when he stayed quiet, turned away from them & held my tears in as it stayed quiet. I heard Emileigh shuffle towards Samuel & whisper; "After this is all over, I'll still be in the bedroom." She smirked as she spoke these words in a whisper but loud enough for me to hear. I shuddered, Samuel saw this wrapping my arms around my waist pulling me to his naked chest I stood tensely still. He whispered to Emileighs reply; "Get your shit & get out." I closed my eyes trying to get the burning image out of my head, then a million things ran throughout my mind, how many times had he & his "best friend" been at work? Why did she hate me? Why did he do this? Aren't I good enough? She's prettier, sexier & more interesting. She's. better. I pulled away finally, and walked over to Emileigh as she stood in shock but still at a smirk, and I looked at her for a moment feeling Samuels eyes on me. I asked her why she had done this to our perfect relationship. She laughed loudly and snorted at my question & said, "baby girl, maybe if you didn't want to wait every time he wanted you.. He wouldn't be so weak." I studied her face, it had the expression of "I'm better than you & always have been." All over it. Then spoke quietly, "Samuel, I'm sorry I kept you waiting, but if you wanted it the-" he interrupted me & grabbed my wrist that was soon to have a million scars, pulled me towards him & looked me in the eyes speaking slowly "Red, listen." I nodded slowly, trying to pull my wrist away wishing my vein would pop under his grip then maybe he would be able to be free & happy with Emileigh. He leaned in & pecked my forehead whispering against it; "I'm sorry, okay? I didn't mean it." Anger flushed through me as I tried to swallow my vomit rising in my throat. And then it hit me like a boulder hitting a landslide. I whispered; " happy anni." He quickly caught on & gasped, squeezing my wrist & yelled, "God I'm such a fucking idiot, I'm sorry red. She's nothing to me, you're all that matters, I love y-" I cut him off with, "is this what love is?!" I hissed.
