Days of Memories.

2: When You're Too Mute and Expressionless to Describe Your Feelings

- Spencer's PoV - 

WELL LARS, THINGS ARE GOING TO GET MORE COMPLICATED. I sigh and I glance sideways to see Lara frowning. What is she thinking about? I can only stare at her with my confused look and she suddenly stare at me and she shook her head. I raised an eyebrow at her. She puffed her cheeks. 

"No" she suddenly said.

I can only get more confused.

"No no no no no. This couldn't be right" she said with a very desperate tone.

I crossed my arms and gave her my 'what 'cha looking at' face and she kept shaking her head in desperation. Asher told her something. Yes. He told her something that i shouldn't and will never ever ever get to know. I'm secretly jealous actually. Despite my 95% muteness and my 'emotionless' face at all times, I hid all of my feelings inside. None of people get what i'm feeling. Even my family. They thought that i have some mental or intelligence disorder. I didn't speak (well perhaps to a few people and i didn't want to try) at all until I met Lara in the second grade (and she introduced me to Asher shortly after that). I still remember the day that Lara came to my seat in the back and (a very sudden moment and surprisingly) asked me to be her best friend. I was dumbfounded and shocked when she holds out her hand and smiled brightly. Lara is the first person that can understand my silent gesture. She's the first person that will always realised literally everything  about me. She's the first stranger that i talked to and i am very amazed that i managed to trust her instantly the first day i talked to her(and i'm very proud of that tbh). She also managed to reduce my muteness slowly and bring a few colours to my face. She's the friend you can always hope for. Well but, the only thing that is missing from her is: sensitiveness. She is always able to notice changes in a lot of thing but she can never ever realised what's actually going around with me. I mean, she would eventually realise my problems or something that i couldn't tell anyone BUT, it could take months even years! Something happened to Asher when we were in the 5th grade and she didn't actually realise that until in we're in the 7th grade. Just how bad is that? She never even realised (or able to guess correctly) about who is my crush and so on. 

I take a quick look at Asher and i was quite surprised to find that he looked away when i look at him. What. Was he staring at me the whole time? Wait. Did he just-. Okay you know what? Forget if i was about to ask anything. Now, where should i begin? Okay, It all began in our second semester during our 3rd grade. Lara's parents invited me over into her house to have a sleepover. I agreed to it and when i arrived there, I saw Lara talking with a tall guy with a very calm yet beautiful face (i know that it's a guy but he is indeed beautiful). I still remember that this guy had a spiky brown hair and a pair of a very dazzling green eyes. I also remembered the way Lara grabbed my hand and she forced me to talk to Asher. I was still scared with socialising to people that day and I just couldn't help but stay silent the whole time. And what shock me the most is that Asher just calmly ruffled my hair and he smiled kindly at me while he's introduced himself. What makes me look up to him is that he never forced me to talk to him. I have to be honest that i'm still scared of him 'til this very day and i somehow couldn't get my words or sentences right without feeling nervous. 

I glance back to Lara who is staring at the floor with hands on her cheeks. I know that she is imagining things. I sigh for the numerous time.

"What is it Lars?" i asked quietly.

Lara shook her head without turning to me. 

"No. It's nothing Spen. I was just thinking about something that i should have found out ages ago. Goodness! I should have realised this thing all along!" she said. 

She covered her face and she suddenly sat upright and stare intently at me. I flinch at her sudden movement but i managed to keep my cool (yeah barely i guess). I stare at her in confusion until she clasped her hand together and she smiled brightly. 

"Anyways, you two will make a great couple. Finally! My ship will sail" she murmurs.

I blink at her statement.

"What did you jus-" 

"Nothing! Forget what i just said" Lara said, interrupting my question. 

I gave her a face palm and she laughed. Deep down, i swear to God she said something about me and someone will be a great couple. What is she thinking about? There is no way anyone would like me i mean, who would want to talk to a 95% mute person who can't even say more than just one sentence? I mean Lara's presence in my life had greatly change my life. She's a magical creature sent to me by God Himself and now, she's actually picturing me with another person? Whoever this person is, i have a feeling that this person is truly insane. 

I noticed that Lara was lost in thoughts and she started smiling and looking at me every 5 seconds. Whatever she's thinking about i don't want to know (i'm curious tbh). I opened my mouth to ask her something but i quickly shut them when I feel a hand in my back. I look up to meet a pair of beautiful green eyes staring directly into my eyes. I unconsciously hold my breath and i can feel my body heated a little. It's Asher. 

Asher gave me a small smile as he ruffled my hair before he moved to sit next to Lara. Oh God. I exhaled slowly and calm myself. Asher rested his head in his hand and he gave a look to Lara, who is giggling and smiling. Asher sighed and he gave me a quick glance before quickly look back to Lara. I can see a faint red trace in his cheek. Was he blushing? 

Lara gave Asher a devilish smirk before she cleared her throat.

"Sooooo, Mr. Asher what brings you here?" She said with a teasing tone and she just couldn't get that smirk away from her face.

Asher's eyes widen in surprise and his jaw drop slightly. 

"Wait. You figured it out?" he asked.

Lara look and wink at me before she quickly turned back to Asher and gave him her devilish look. I frowned at her in confusion. Her reaction only makes me more confused. Asher shook his head and he covered his face with his hand. I look at Lara then i turn my attention to Asher. The hell are they taking about? 

Lara patted Asher in the shoulder. I am 100% sure that Lara notices curiousness but she didn't say anything and she keep smirking like goddammit stop smirking you little Satan. Asher leaned back restlessly to his seat. He and Lara looked at each other and  Asher shook his head. 

"Fuck you Lars" he said loudly.

Lara began to laugh and several students turn their attention to us. Some of them laugh and some of them look at them in confusion. I still remember the day when the school beauty queen (she's Lara's greatest enemy) came to her and started saying of how she and Ash had a relationship and she kinda threaten Lara to back away from Ash while she actually did that in order to get Ash's attention. Well, it's not a good idea to start a problem with Lara since her reputation is much more bigger than that beauty queen. Well Asher always treated the 12th grade student just like his own friend. 

I could see that Ash leans closer to Lara and whisper something in her ear. Lara then giggled and she whispered back to his ear. I gritted my teeth and i rolled my eyes. Wait. Why am i angry? 

I looked at Lara and Asher who's now laughing and they seemed to be having a deep conversation. I bit my lower lip at the sight in front of me and how Asher stare at Lara daringly. I exhaled sharply and I somehow starting to feel that anger slowly boiling inside me. I closed my eyes to calm myself down and i had to ask myself over and over again about why i'm angry. I opened my eyes a little and i can see that Asher is now holding Lara's hand. 

I shook my head and i forced myself to look away from them until i realised this one thing. 

Well shit.

I'm jealous. 

(HEY GUYS WASSAP! Sorry for the long update! I have so many school stuff to do and i wrote this chap in my english class because i don't feel like writing an essay. Anyways! I hope you enjoy this chap and stay tune for the next chap!  

P.s. What do you think of Ash and Spen?)