Don't you know that I don't live inside a house of glass.
For good or bad, I am that house of fragile glass.
Both breakable and previously broken.
I know that a break can occur easily, that is just who I am.
Those fragile glass walls that make me and keep me sad at times.
True they are paper thin and easily shattered.
Observe my fragile glass makeup...
you will notice an etched image in the center, slightly to the left
side...
that's my heart.
What happened to it?
Broken into so many pieces.
At times, I managed to glue the pieces back into place,
yet my heart doesn't appear the same as it did before.
Now you'll see the etching as puzzle pieces.
Somewhat complicated, impossible to solve, or so it seems.
Defenses are very strong, as if I am really a cement fortress.
A few crumbling spots here and there but solid throughout.
That is the complexities in fragility which make up a glass house.
I am not the only one in the world who appears as cold solid stone,
when they truly are made from fragile glass.
True, I can put on a facade... don't be fooled,
a slight push can cause complete demolition.
Not a pristine glass house by any means.
The pitted indentations can clearly be seen.
Marks from stones thrown against it's fragile walls.
Can I receive understanding?
I only look for that from above...
the Creator of True
understanding and Love.
So many questions; am I to replace a pane...
should the glass still remain?
Can I forget, or just sit and lament?
Though I know what is true, do I continue with my rue?
Pondering further still, telling everyone, yet really telling no one.
Do I still deny?
Would it be a lie?
...laugh out loud?
...blend into the crowd?
Take on the face of a clown, tears when no one's around?
Or reinforce and endure?
Though it be a feat, I realize a healing heart will not allow defeat!
I keep repeating those certain phrases I've always heard...
stiff upper lip
...smile don't frown...
make lemonade from lemons...
draw on my known provisions...
dance in the rain...
don't hold onto pain...
don't stop believing...
let go of grieving...
be loving and kind...
tell them I don't mind...
live to see another day...
never forget to pray...
it will all come together...
we'll soon be living in perfect weather!
Have another glass of wine...
you will be fine.
Just fine!
