Hanakotoba

Betony

Walking becomes much more harder when you are alone. I mean, I know I'm always alone but that doesn't mean I have to like it.

The sun begin to set. I walked as I quietly hummed a song. I sometimes asked myself why am I humming a song that's just going to make me feel depressed, but then I realize the reason behind that is because I just can't let go. It was like the melody that mom used to sing to lull me to sleep glued onto my brain and refused to leave it in peace.

My house was just two blocks away from my school. I remember it was because it's the closest and it'll be faster to get me had something happen to Hiroki. I once asked if they gave birth to me just for the purpose of getting an organ provider for Hiroki and I remember how they say that, it's not true. "We love you more," I remember mom said, "Because we know exactly what we are getting." That actually didn't help and those words were like a slap on my face, forcing me to accept the fact that I was loved because I'm an organ provider for Hiroki.

So why am I so sad know that they're gone?

Because you love them.

You don't have to slap that onto my face, brain.

After that accident, I started to live alone. Dr. Higurashi, the Doctor who had been taking care of Hiroki all this time was kind enough to provide me with anything I need, such as money, care, home, and everything. I'm still allowed to lived in my family's house because of him. Speaking of, I finally reached it. My house.

It was just a normal Japanese-style house, it's bigger yes, since mom was a traditional dancer, though she has to stop when Hiroki was diagnosed with Fanconi Anemia.

I slid the door open, not bothering to say tadaima because I know I lived alone. I opened my shoes and went directly to my bedroom without even bother to cook my dinner. I don't have the appetite now. I walked myself towards my bed and as my body hit the comfortable bed, I stared at the ceiling.

Today, has been another day of invisibility for me.

I sighed, then I took my bag and took an artbook that my only friend gave me.

Yes, surprisingly, I have a friend. Her name is Yuiki. She's a popular girl at my school. I know, weird, huh? An invisible girl befriend the most popular girl at school seems like a story that you would find on novels or soap opera. The artbook she gave me is the one from the game I've been wanting to play.

Seven Knights.

I have heard this before when the boys at my school talked about it. I fell in love with the art style but it was sad that I don't have Android, my cellphone is technically an old one and I don't have any money to buy myself a new one. So every weekend all I'm doing is opened youtube, watch the playthrough or the storyline, or searching for the characters' profile.

I actually liked almost all the characters though, even the bad ones, though God of Destruction is out of the list. When I heard that they are making the artbook, I asked Yuiki to pre-order it for me since I don't have any idea how to pre-order.

I hugged the book closed to my chest. It' crazy, but I once hoped that Seven Knights were real. Rudy would be a nice brother to talked to and to share story with, he reminds me of Hiroki actually. Ariel would be the cute little sister that would welcome me home and I would get to pinch that chubby cheeks of hers. Evan would be the dense friend that I have to knock over the head every time just to make him realize that he loves Karin and Karin loves her...

There are still so many scenarios that played in my mind. Seven Knights characters would be a nice friends and family.....

".... I wish Seven Knights are real..." I mumbled before going to bed.