Loved and Hated

Chapter 2

"When life gives you a hundred reasons to cry, show life that you have a thousand reasons to smile."

CHAPTER 2

~ 7 Months Later ~

• Aliyha's POV •

He did it. He finally made his unexpected career on being with that other members of One Direction. And here I am, on our house, about to wash the dishes and take out the trash. Yeah, why would a girl who's brother is one of the members of a famous boyband?

"Aliyha! Hurry up! I'm gonna cook pasta! I don't want a lot of dishes scattered in the sink while I'm cooking!" Mum yelled. Ever since Zayn left, things got worse. It feels like he doesn't give a single crap about us anymore. Especially to me.

He would just send us money and that's it. He doesn't speak with us, nor try to see us. I was hoping that he would come back and get me out of here. Everything that's going around this house is getting worse and worse each day.

Mum is even worse than before. "ALIYHA! COME DOWN STAIRS! NOW!" Another yell coming from my mum's mouth. I hurried downstairs.

"Aliyha Jawharah Brannan Malik! I told you to wash the dishes now!" Mum kept yelling but I interrupted her. "Mum I'm tired.. The way you treat me feels like you didn't even want me at all.. Just like I'm not your daughter." I said harshly. I just can't stand it anymore.

I had to let out what my heart felt all these years. Nothing will happen if I keep it hidden. I just did what I had to.

(Guys! Zayn's real name is 'Zayn Jawaad Brannan Malik'.. Although I'm not sure what his second name's spelling is.. Brannan is Zayn's mum's last name before she got married..)

"Who said I wanted you? In case you didn't know, you are just a big mistake! The biggest disappointment! You are just so damn lucky that your twin-brother loves you when he is the only one who is supposed to be here with us! Now he is in one of the biggest boyband in the world and look at you! No one would ever believe that you are Zayn Malik's twin sister! If you weren't even here, this family would be better! If you weren't here, we didn't have to work hard to raise the both of you! If you weren't here, I didn't have to wake up all night to change your damn diaper and other shit like that! If you weren't here, my life would be better! You did nothing but trouble you little piece of shit!" she yelled at my face.

I sure know that tears are streaming down my cheeks. I remember what my english teacher told me; Children are supposed to be the light of a mother's life. But that's a lie. "I can't wait til the day when you move out, I just want you out of my life, you're just a problem! I'm sick of being your mother! You're nothing to me, don't come to me for help ever, I don't give a damn what you do anymore! You can get the adoption papers and I'll sign them for you but I guess no one would adopt a bitch like you! You're useless! Oh! Why can't you just be like your brother and sisters?! They're perfect and you're nothing! I wanted more children but I NEVER wanted you at all! You just ruined everything! You dirty little bitch!" With that, I ran off. I ran outside and cried my eyes out.

I'm tired. I'm really tired! I can't take this anymore! This is all too much! What did I even do to have a life like this?! I can't believe those words came out of her mouth! My own mother's mouth! She said that to ehr own daughter!

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"What do you plan on doing now? I would appreciate it if you get all of your things and head out of that door." When I entered the house, I saw mum sitting on the sofa, watching. I didn't want to answer her.

I was expecting different. When I ran out of the house, I was expecting her to be all like; oh my god! What have I done?! I just hurt my own daughters feelings!. But no. I guess she didn't even cared to worry about me.

So I went straight to my room and packed my things. Right when I finished packing, I grabbed my savings.. At least I saved up at least $5000. I took one last glance at my room. The only things left are; my bed, wardrobe, my desk and chair and that's all.

I'm going to miss this. I even left a little note that is for mum that says;

    Mum, 
      Sorry for being born and I hope one day you'll forgive me 
      for what I did and I hope that one day, you'll see me as 
      your own daughter... I love you mommy! 
                                                                    ~ Aliyha

I hope she'll see it. I slowly walked out of my room and closed the door silently. When I turned around, I saw Waliyha, wide eyed and shocked. "A-Aliyha..?" She mumbled. She looked at my suitcase and back at me. Then a tear escaped her eye.

I walked towards her and hugged her. "Why are you leaving?" She asked. For now, I'm crying as well. "It's for the best.." I said and let go of her.

"Waliyha, I need you to do something.. Please don't tell Safaa. Whenever she ask where I am, just tell her that I had to go to aunt Maryum okay?" I said while wiping my tears.

"When will you be back?" She asked, still crying. "I'm not sure. Please stop crying. I have to go.. I love you Waliyha. Don't forget what I told you okay?" I muttered.

"Aliyha, you don't have to go." She protested. "No, I have to. Just remember what I always say that could remind you about me. The best prize that life can offer, is working hard at a work worth doing." I said wiping away her tears.

"And if you don't like the road you're walking, start paving another one." I added. She just nodded and I kissed her forehead then hugged her for one last time.

I headed downstairs and saw my mum still where she was when I came back earlier. "Mum.. I'm going away.. Out of your life. I hope your life would be better without me. I love you." I said and headed out the door.

"Don't bother to come back." was the last thing I've heard before I closed the door. I burst into tears when I started walking.

I decided to change my number and forget... forget them? That would be hard but.. If that's what makes mum happy, then it's worth doing.

But I wouldn't running away from home without any reason. I had one though..

I did it to start a new life. This is just the beginning.

• Waliyha's POV •

It hurts me a lot to face the fact that Aliyha would be leaving. I felt like it is my fault why she had to leave. I mean, when she was born, I was the next one.

I thought at first that she doesn't like me because she felt jealousy because how mum treats me. But I was wrong. Among my siblings, she is the one who loves me the most.

But mum doesn't like it when I'm spending time with her. She said I deserve much better than talking to her. But I also need to talk to her.

I mean she's my sister, Safaa is too young to understand me, Doniya doesn't really like me, and Zayn, he's a boy and he wouldn't understand a thing.

I need a sister that I could talk to since I'm twelve and I'm going to be a teenager in a few. I could talk to her about girl things.

I need her..