Baddie(Omg Girlz Love Story)*NewCover*

Secrets Within

(I put them on tour now they are still in L.A)

Secrets Within

Who am I ? Zonnique Jailee Pullings Who am I ? I'm Zonnique mother fucking Pullings that's who the fuck I am . They wonder why I'm so fucking mean well heres why wait I need a fucking cig , I was standing on the Balcony and I lit my cigarette . I'm so mean and sneaky because I Know I won't live long you know why ? I just can't take it I'm so mad I wish I could undo this I miss being happy . I'm so Upset I'm actually Jealous of Breaunna and Bahja call me crazy but there life's are way Better then mines , they will have kids and grow old with there husbands ill be dead soon . I know all about Bahja and Breaunna plan they are going to jump me after a show but they will be dressed in disguise I do deserve it cause I am a hoe , I have a disease yeah it's killing me slowly and I know it's real soon I'm Losing energy slowly I'm tired of the medication . I'm tired of doing things I shouldn't do I wanna be happy and if I gotta fuck people and ruin there lives I will , it's just not fun anymore being apart of the OMG girls was the best thing that happened to me . People wonder why I always get the lead in songs and dances it's because everyone knows I will be gone soon except for the girls and my siblings . I know this is going to hurt them badly especially my dad cause he doesn't even know its happening I'm to scared to tell him and my mom can't do it she know it will kill my father right now every night I either come out on this balcony and cry or I'm either messing with one of the boys ruining there relationship and I'm going to be honest I was never attracted to Chresantho or Jacob and I wasn't really attracted to Ray he liked me A lot and I couldn't turn him down . What am I going to the remaining months of my life ? Party nah I do that a lot I picked up my bucket list I've been writing shit down since I got this disease it was a simple 100 things I wanted to die before I die hmmmmm what did I do .

BucketList

-Have Sex ✔

- Ruin The Girls RelationShips✔

-Meet Big Sean ✔

- Become Really Famous ✔

- Travel To different states ✔

-Get Noticed By Beyonce ✔

- Get a Professional Camera ✔

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The list went on and on I completed alot in this short time I put my cig out on the balcony railing and I threw it off the Balcony I was getting tired of living . I really was I haven't took my pills for a week and I was feeling so weak and drained would I be able to do the show ? I have to I can't let #TOMG down especially with no album . You would think since Im dying they would released the album but no they won't , The always auto tune me because my voice is slowly going cause I smoke cigarettes it's easier to lie and say your were near someone smoking a cigarette then weed which I used to smoke . No I don't have aids my disease is rare and there's probably no cure its only few shows left meaning I can finally go home I don't wanna spend the rest of my life in a hospital bed if I dropped dead somewhere I would be happy that's why I stop taking my pills that 'Made Me Feel Better and Live Longer' you know I just wanna give my grandpa a hug and tell him I love him so much my mom said he's kinda getting worst I would hate to lose him . My phone vibrated in my jean Jacket Pocket it was Ray Of Course he's been calling me non stop my aren't strong like that anymore I wasn't that In to him I read the Text , 'You Can't Ignore Me forever were going on tour can you please Forgive me Please Please ' I rolled my eyes and Let that nigga on seen because I Have Feelings For Craig Crippen

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