I saw you come closer,
scared out of my mind.
Too scared to scream,
and even to fight.
You would not stop,
and I saw your cold eyes.
I was helpless,
I could do nothing but cry.
We were there in an alley,
it was a cold New York day.
You took off my clothes,
I could not push you away.
When you were done,
I could not move.
Crying I whispered:
"Just let hell break loose"
When I finally got home,
the house was empty.
I ran to the shower,
oh, how I felt dirty.
I wash of your touch,
and wash of your smell.
Reality hits me,
and I'm starting to yell.
I am not happy to have,
this house on my own.
I am shaking and screaming,
I feel so alone.
I need someone to come,
and I need someone to stay.
I need someone to help me,
take this pain away.
You took away my pride,
you took away my dignity.
But most of all I'm hurt,
that you took my virginity.
The person who broke me,
is yet a mystery.
All that is left of me,
is whole-hearted misery.
I walk alone,
to scared to trust
The pain is too much,
but aparently a must.
'What doesn't break you,
makes you stronger'
But I can't take
this pain any longer.
I walk to bathroom
to fill the need
I slide the blade to my wrist
and it's starting to bleed
I cut it deeper,
it starts to hurt now
I start to feel numb,
and I fall to the ground
The front door opens,
and I start to feel sympathy.
To my loving family,
I whisper "sorry".
My eyes gets heavy,
and I take my last breath
I close my eyes,
and prepare myself for death.
