Balance of Nature

I wanted to run away, i didn't want it to end like this! I didn't want my family to see me die all i ever wanted was a normal care free life until he walked into my life, i was a normal teenager who had everything a kid could ask for.

I didn't want my life to change like it did i didn't want to have to be the one to make the big decision, i wanted someone else to do it for me but instead it was me who had to make the big choice not my mum not my dad not even my older sister and brother. Everything fell to me i was the only one with the power to change what had happened no i was the only one who could change what was happening and make it better but i was scared i didn't want to be alone without anyone but myself it was something that i had never experienced before or thought of but i knew it would come but why did it have to come so early i was only a teenager who had his whole life planned out but instead he had to do this as this was what was planned out for him ever since he was born, he didn't have a choice in what was being planned i just had to follow it without any questions.

But why ME! why not my older sister? why not my older brother? why not my cousins? why does it have to be me who makes this decision? i am frightened i will make the wrong choice what will happen then? what will happen to me and what will happen to everyone else?

WHY ME? WHY DID YOU CHOOSE ME!

"Because you are the only person i could ever ask to do this with me"